Well this year has been total shit as you all know.
However, this Thursday (tomorrow) little h will be leaving Sundance and headed back to his elementary school.
He has been at Sundace since February 13th and to say that I am scared shitless would be an understatement.
He has made remarkable progress. He smiles a lot now and that is something I didn't think I would see again.
All his medication has been changed and some more has been added.
Is the meds the reason for the change? I can't say.
I know that whenever he says something negative, he has to say 2 positive things about himself.
I LOVE this rule and wish I could implement it into the school district.
It could be called "littleh's law".
Can you imagine if all school kids were forced to say 2 positive things about themselves??
It might cut down on bad behaviors all around.
Anyways, as I was saying, I am really scared for him to go back.
You see while he was at Sundance, I had a total hysterectomy. I was able to have the surgery, spend the night in the hospital and recover like I'm suppose to because I knew they would never call me.
Now the time has come for my other surgery.
You see, ever since my gastric bypass I have felt like something wasn't right.
I stopped losing weight.
I started spending way too many hours in my toilet room.
I always felt naseous.
I kept having intense stomach pains.
Well, after having Dr. Takemyfatawaynow do a scope on me we have found some issues.
It seems as though I have an intestinal blockage and my pouch has failed as a result.
What does this mean??
I have to get it fixed.
My Dr. wanted it fixed several weeks ago but the "emergency hysterectomy" took precedence.
Now it looks like I will be having it done next week.
NEXT WEEK is when little h goes back to school.
There are so many what ifs going on in my head that I have worked myself into a frenzy.
I want what is best for my son but I also need to take care of me.
Am I being selfish?
I feel selfish.
Shit... my life feels like it is in the toilet.
