Have you heard that song by "Great Big World"?
Say something I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I didn't get to you.
You know how when you climb a mountain?
You see when you get to the edge, there's a chance you are going to fall off.
I am on the edge.
Leaps and Bounds forwards
Leaps and Bounds backwards
Is this really my life?
Why can't we have good days ALL IN A ROW???
Today was h's 2nd day in BIC and he will be there tomorrow.
L & H are fighting LITERALLY.
K refuses to do his homework until G is home so G yells at me.
D seems to be the only normal one this week.
DON'T CALL CPS
I'm not giving up on the kids.
I feel like I'm giving up on me.
I'm so damn stressed out I can't concentrate.
I started emptying my closet of all my bigger clothes hoping that would help me.
Instead it has caused me more stress.
I am overwhelmed that I am a shopaholic.
I had no idea I had so many clothes.
I have given a friend 5 garbage bags full and I have 2 more.
I have given Goodwill 6 garbage bags full and I have thrown out 3.
What is wrong with me?
I shopped because I was depressed.
Now I'm stressed.
After 20 years, I took up smoking cigarettes again.
It seems to be the only thing that calms me.
I am up to 3 a day.
You see, G thought I quit again Thanksgiving.
I did.
This week, I started again.
I honestly feel like I am losing my battle of wills.
I even ordered a BOX of Big Hunk candy bars from Amazon.
Why do I sabotage myself?
My reward for eating the candy was my crown falling out.
Geesh.... I can't catch a break.
Everyone says they envy me because of my trips coming up.
I find this even more depressing.
I would give everything I own up if I could be guaranteed a good school year.
NO guarantees in life.
I am on the edge and I don't know which way I'm going.
My upcoming girl's trip could not have come at a better time.
There's a good chance I will be drunk the majority of the time and I will probably act a little inappropriate too.
I feel blessed beyond measure that I am going with true friends who don't judge me. Because right now I'm not sure which way is up.
Say Something I'm giving up on you............. That line is what I say to myself.
Lord, help me through because I am at my breaking point.
