Say something I'm giving up on you....

Have you heard that song by "Great Big World"?


Say something I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I didn't get to you.


You know how when you climb a mountain?
You see when you get to the edge, there's a chance you are going to fall off.


I am on the edge.


Leaps and Bounds forwards


Leaps and Bounds backwards


Is this really my life?


Why can't we have good days ALL IN A ROW???


Today was h's 2nd day in BIC and he will be there tomorrow.


L & H are fighting LITERALLY.


K refuses to do his homework until G is home so G yells at me.


D seems to be the only normal one this week.


DON'T CALL CPS


I'm not giving up on the kids.


I feel like I'm giving up on me.


I'm so damn stressed out I can't concentrate.


I started emptying my closet of all my bigger clothes hoping that would help me.


Instead it has caused me more stress.


I am overwhelmed that I am a shopaholic.


I had no idea I had so many clothes.


I have given a friend 5 garbage bags full and I have 2 more.


I have given Goodwill 6 garbage bags full and I have thrown out 3.


What is wrong with me?


I shopped because I was depressed.


Now I'm stressed.


After 20 years, I took up smoking cigarettes again.


It seems to be the only thing that calms me.


I am up to 3 a day.


You see, G thought I quit again Thanksgiving.


I did.


This week, I started again.


I honestly feel like I am losing my battle of wills.


I even ordered a BOX of Big Hunk candy bars from Amazon.


Why do I sabotage myself?


My reward for eating the candy was my crown falling out.


Geesh.... I can't catch a break.


Everyone says they envy me because of my trips coming up.


I find this even more depressing.


I would give everything I own up if I could be guaranteed a good school  year.


NO guarantees in life.


I am on the edge and I don't know which way I'm going.


My upcoming girl's trip could not have come at a better time.


There's a good chance I will be drunk the majority of the time and I will probably act a little inappropriate too.


I feel blessed beyond measure that I am going with true friends who don't judge me. Because right now I'm not sure which way is up.


Say Something I'm giving up on you.............   That line is what I say to myself.


Lord, help me through because I am at my breaking point.