Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Ah ha moment

For the past 3 years or longer, I haven't been able to smell.

I lost it once when I was pregnant with H and it came back when I delivered the triplets.

Then when baby h was 2 he smacked my nose with his hard head and broke it. I haven't been able to smell since.

Well when I was shopping for Christmas presents this year I walked into Victoria's Secret to get a gift card for my neice. While standing in the HUGE line to checkout, I sprayed something called "Shimmer". At first I thought "UGH!! That's horrible!" (Which has been my nose's way of telling me that perfume stinks since it has been broken.)

A little while later I found myself in Macy's buying my boys some cutie patotie winter hats. While standing in line to check out I SMELLED "what I thought" was the lady in front of me. I said... "What kind of perfume are you wearing, it smells so good?" She just looked at me in my face like I had sprouted another head.
AWKWARD SILENCE MOMENT!!!

So, then I kept smelling it and it was STRONG and it smelt great!

I sniffed my hand and realized the pretty smell was coming from ME!!

Do you know what I did next? That's right, I walked my ass back to Victoria's Secret to buy me some of that Shimmer stuff.

I walked right in and grabbed me a bottle and went to wait in line again. The cute little girl that helped me before asked me what I needed and I told her my story. She then showed me that there was a whole gift set that came with a bottle of the perfume, a small bottle of perfume, a lotion and a body wash. Then she showed me the Shimmer in a larger bottle. So I bought the gift set and the large bottle of the Shimmer stuff.

Would you like to know what the perfume was called?

Heavenly

Isn't that fitting?

I wonder if dropping weight is helping with my smell??

Dresses!

I was visiting with some friends the other day and they were asking me what I was going to wear on my upcoming vacation.

SHIT! I completely forgot about formal night on the cruise. I bought some new dresses last year but I am happy to say that those size 26/28 and 30/32 dresses are no longer able to fit me. :)

My friends suggested I go to Ross. I have never even walked into that store before so I was aprehensive.

I walked into Ross and headed straight for the dresses. I first picked up size 24 and headed to the fitting room. The man at the fitting room asked me if the dresses were for me. (Yes, they are GENIOUS!!)
Well the man (or manly woman... still not sure) said that those dresses were not about to fit me and that I should find a smaller size.
So I went back and found some size 22 dresses. I took them back and they were big. Back to the rack and got size 20. Verdict... still too big. So, I go back to the rack and grab some 18's.
Now some of you might be saying.. "Why didn't you grab the 18s to begin with? Isn't that the size of jeans you are wearing??"
I have to say that once I thought about it the size 18 did make sense.

This weight loss shit is such a damn mental battle I feel like some days I am on the loosing side of this war!!

So I grabbed what I thought was 4~18's. 
I also grabbed one of those things that is kinda sheer, short sleeves and reminds me of a bolero jacket. I don't know what those things are called because I have never worn them before.

The problem is that the dresses I found are all sleeveless or have thin straps for sleeves. Now, I don't know about you but I have "flags" at the bottom of my arms so they do not need to be shown in public. This little shirt thing covered up my arms perfectly and went with all the dresses that I picked out.

Back to dresses...
While I was doing a happy dance in the dressing room I had one last dress to try on.
I put it on and I thought "this one looks nice but it is a little tighter than the others".
I took it off and looked at the size... a FREAKIN' 16!!
If you know me then you know that that is the first one I put on the counter.

All in all I bought 3 formal-type dresses, a walk-about dress and that little sheer jacket thingy.

YIPEE!!

New Goals

Ok, I have decided to make some new goals.

My first goal is to be able to wear a tennis bracelet that G bought me about 14 years ago.
The bracelet has NEVER fit my arm. I was able to fasten it one time when G first gave it to me. He asked me to take it to the store to get it "sized up" but I found that phrase so insulting that I refused to do it. Besides, I figured I would loose enough weight soon enough that it would fit. (Famous last words!) Several of my friends have borrowed it over the years for special occasions but I have always wished it was me.

Now I have another piece of jewelry... a new Seiko watch with diamonds on the face. My brother and his bride bought it for me for Christmas. I LOVE it and it fits but it is kinda tight on my arm. I can wear it without losing circulation so it is not as tight as my bracelet.

So my new goals are being able to wear my bracelet and my watch and have them kinda dangle like my bracelet from Tiffany's.

Wish me luck...

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Goals

Ok so I have been avoiding the scale because this weight loss is also an emotional battle. I don't know why.
Well since my friend AG won't get off my ass about it, I decided to just get it over with!

The results???
234!!

That means I have lost 106 pounds!!

I have met my goal!

Now what?

Monday, December 27, 2010

Bariatric Surgery Support Group ~ Holiday Editiono

Ok, so where to begin?

I had decided that the only way Dr. Takemyfatawaynow was going to ask me out was by having him know about my mad cooking skills. The problem? My mad skills are best shown in the dessert section.

I think I know what you're thinking... Isn't taking desserts to this meeting kinda like taking a bottle of wine to your AA sponsor? (Thanks JA for bringing this to my attention. LOL) Perhaps so, but a married 40 year old with a crush has limited options.

So I made LOTS of goodies and packaged them up in adorable Christmas "chinese takeout boxes". Are you wondering what I brought him?

Try not to drool... butter-rum poundcake, red velvet cake, peppermint bark, HOMEMADE pumpkin fudge and my Icouldsobethenextmrsfields chocolate chip cookies! For my meeting I made chicken wings that were marinated in soy sauce and pineapple juice. Then they were baked with a layer of sugar free lemon jello granules and poppy seeds. Very pretty dish!

During the meeting we all had to introduce ourselves... Hi my name is Kim and I had gastric bypass on August 16th.... I have lost "x" amount of pounds... etc etc etc

Well as any of my friends can tell you, I really wasn't listening that well. It is because I was distracted by Dr Iwanttodateyou! I caught him peeking into his boxes and pulling out a cookie. He put the cookie behind his back and then turned around. When he turned back around he had the cutest look upon his face. I watched him do this a few more times. When I got up to talk to someone he walked over to MOI! He started off by saying I "looked good" (heart fluttering) and then he said "That is the best cookie I have ever eaten. I think you should sell them." Halleluah Hallelulah I'm getting closer to being told...Kim, you are the one for me! Or at least being asked out on a date.

Don't you think??? (better say yes)

Monday, December 13, 2010

December 13, 2010

I just wanted to share my favorite quote with you.....

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. ~ Theodore Roosevelt

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this quote and I try to live my life by it. It is hard to fail but sometimes I feel like I fail myself. I know that I am not suppose to eat certain things but every once in a while I slip. I know as I am eating those cape cod chips that I should not be eating them but the crisp salty flavor on my tongue makes me forget for a moment how horrible I will feel later.

I saw a lady tonight who hasn't seen me for MONTHS. She looked at me shockingly and asked me how much weight I had lost. I told her ... "I think 95 pounds or maybe a little more?"
She then asked me if I cheated by having surgery because there is no way I could loose that much otherwise.

I informed her by saying that Yes I did have surgery but in no way is that cheating! I started to go on a rant about how I struggle with choices everyday but decided not to waste my breath on someone that didn't get it. Instead I told her... my quote. She looked at me in astonishment and apologized for offending me. I told her that I RARELY get offended, I just get upset when people say that I cheated by having surgery. So I will say it again...

I DID NOT CHEAT!! I TOOK EXTREME MEASURES TO TRY NOT TO BE FAT AGAIN!!

When will people learn????

Thursday, December 9, 2010

December 9, 2010

Ok I have to admit it. I still haven't stepped on a scale.


I will say this... I am able to wear those size 18 Gloria Vanderbilt jeans and I am able to zip and button them all while STANDING!!


I still feel full quick and have learned that several things are not my friend... tater tots, macaroni in any form or shape, well actually... pasta in general is a tricky subject. Chili is not something that I am able to eat that much of. I made a white chicken chili and my body did better with that than red chili. I LOVE fritoes but my new system hates them, the sight of them and pretty much the look of them. Gone are the days of my friend Rick's shrimp dip with fritoes scoops. I tried to eat it when he visited but my system said... "Yeah.. don't think so!"


I did decide to buy myself a George Foreman grill. Actually I used my Kohl's Kash on it but the grill is what I chose. So I brought it home and decided to cook some burgers on it. Now let me tell you this... we make burgers a lot. My kids love them, my spouse loves them and I can eat about 1/4th without the bun and my mouth is watering afterwards! So I toss 4 on my new kitchen contraption. I look at it and wonder how they are going to turn out. I set my timer for 5 min because I figured I will check them after a few minutes anyways. As they are cooking the grease is collecting in that tray. Now I had always seen the grease on the bottom of my indoor grill pan but didn't realize just how much grease 8 hamburgers produce. By the time the last 4 burgers were done, the fat tray was filled up! So that is when I decided that I made a good purchase.


Now I have a dilemma. I have to make a TON of sweets next week for teachers, kids friends, neighbors, etc. I can do it because I did it for Thanksgiving.


My dilemma is that my weight loss surgery support group is asking me to bring some finger food. Oh.. did I mention... DR B will be there???? Now is my chance to show him my cooking ability so he can ask me out!! The problem... I MAKE SWEETS!!!! Really really good ones!!!


What can I make that is "somewhat healthy" but so totally outstanding that he says.. "Oh Kim.. you really are the one for me!!"
I don't think that I should make him sweets but maybe I should??? I could show my mad cooking skills by only making him a sweet plate then I could make something else for the other people?


Oh my sweet friends.... HELP ME!!! I have less than ONE WEEK to find a recipe that will have him asking for more than a walk outside! hubba hubba!!