November 30. 2010

Ok I have not stepped on a scale since Thanksgiving. I will tell you why... GREEN BEAN BUNDLES!!

Before Thanksgiving a question was asked during my support group meeting.. "What do we do about Thanksgiving?"
The question I heard was "How in the hell are we going to manage not eating a bunch on the day we are suppose to be stuffing our faces??"
She suggested only picking out the stuff we really like and don't always have.

So Thanksgiving morning comes around and I am baking a ham, some yummy potatoes (SC's recipe!), copper pennies, my cheese ball (log this time because it would not cooperate!), orange balls, pecan pie and a new experiment.. pumpkin spice fudge. The pumpkin pecan pie I experimented with was ate a few days before Thanksgiving... I guess it was a hit. haha

So we get to my mother's house and my brother, his wife and my sister's father-in-law keep staring at me. I guess it had been a while since they saw me. So they kept staring at me saying... "WOW!!"
(NOTETOSELF: Avoid all friends and family for a while to get same reaction!)

So we said Grace and everyone DUG IN like they hadn't eaten in a few days. I kinda stood around and starting fixing kids' drinks. I had decided that I would be the last one to fix a plate so I wouldn't get caught up in the "piling my plate frenzy".

By the time I started fixing my plate everyone else was sitting down. I decided to start off with a small plate instead of the big ones. I put a tiny amount on my plate of the copper pennies (Thanksgiving staple), turkey, ham, my sister's broccoli casserole and my potatoes. I did manage to also add 1 of my sister-in-laws deviled eggs and 1 green bean bundles on my plate. I avoided the rolls and everything else. Oh, when I say tiny I mean a TEENY TINY amount. When I sat down my brother asked me if I was going to enjoy my "appetizer". Everyone was shocked at how little I had on my plate. When everyone got up for a second round I handed my small plate to G, gave him my most pitiful face and asked for 1 more deviled egg and 2 more green bean bundles. He seemed shocked knowing how little I eat these days. I assured him I would finish them all but I would probably take a while. I avoided the pumpkin pies (my favorite), the pecan pie and all the other desserts available. Instead I grabbed one cup of spiced cider and sipped on it for the next hour.

I would like to think that I worked it off doing some Black Friday shopping with my mom the next day but I am still afraid to look at the scale. I want it to say 240 so bad I can scream. I think I will look tomorrow while everyone is at school...

maybe......

November 24 part 2

Ok this update is for those of you who are paying close attention.

About a month ago I decided to buy a pair of jeans from Costco. This wasn't any ordinary jeans, these were Gloria Vanderbilt. Yes, ladies and gentlemen the same jeans I wore in high school when I thought my shit didn't stink.

Well we all know that Gloria's jeans run small. So I was thinking that if I bought the 18 then maybe that would be like a 16 or at the very least 17 1/2. giggle

So I came home and TRIED to put them on. Apparently the size 20 I bought from Macy's is like 2 or 3 sizes bigger than these 18 Vanderbilts.
I considered taking them back because I figured the only day I would be able to zip them up would be the day that they cut off my triplet hangover, aka butt in the front!

Well today I was feeling a little snarky. I sent my family and my company out for the day so I could make some goodies for Thanksgiving without being bothered.
Instead of baking I played on this computer, checked facebook, did some "santa" shopping online and decided to take a shower. When I got out of the shower I thought.. "Maybe I do look a little different." 
I have thought about it more and more ever since my friend LK's husband gave me a second glance. LK's husband is so handsome (of course he would have to be to stand next to LK... gorgeous!!) At any rate, he seemed surprised by the new me so it made me want to look a little closer in the mirror.

Moving on.....
I got out of the shower and dried off. I reached for my NOW BAGGY SIZE 20 JEANS FROM MACY'S and decided to give the 18's "one more try".

Would anyone care to guess which ones I have on right now??

THE SIZE 18 GLORIA VANDERBILTS ARE ON ME RIGHT NOW!!!

Of course, I had to lay down on the bed, excurt some serious arm and hand muscles and close my eyes in case any buttons or rivets started flying.

Also, when you hear of something called a "muffin top" I don't think what is going on right now can even be considered into that category.

This is more like a "Bakery style XL muffin top" but I don't care.

The jeans are on and I must say from the WAIST DOWN I look pretty damn good!

I must say one more thing... be greatful that nobody is home right now because if I manage to get my ass off this couch then there seriously could be some flying parts....

Wish me luck.......

November 24, 2010

It has been a while since I have been on here. For that I apologize. I have been having a ton of "whoe is me" days. For most of you, I bet you are thinking.. "What the hell?" Seriously though, I have been trying really hard yet the scale doesn't seem to move. My clothes are baggier then they have been in a while and yet the scale stays the same. So today (yesterday) I got on my Wii Fit Plus. I was able to get on there a few months back and I was so depressed that I decided not to get back on. So today I slept in and missed my water aerobics class so I decided to work out at home. I pulled out the wii and prepared to do battle with myself. I braved the "body test" and do you know what it said????


246
HOLY SHIT!!!


I couldn't believe it.
I started screaming at the tv.
My kids ran into the living room and asked what was wrong. All I could do is point to the tv. My girls started screaming too because they noticed the number right away. This means that...
 I am 6 small pounds shy of 100 pounds!!!


I just can't believe it. I really wish I could see it but I don't. I am starting to feel it because I find that I have more energy. I have also noticed that some men are starting to pay attention to me. I have always been a flirt, just my nature, but these days I have noticed some guys in particular starting to flirt with me a little. I am boggled by this because it is so new.


Well... for now I will be happy with my latest goal. I am still far away from my ultimate goal but I am excited that I will reach my first goal. In case I never told you... My first goal was to loose 100 pounds by my family vacation in January! I think I am going to make it!!!!


Oh Happy Day!!!

November 12, 2010

Last night I got to spend some time with some of my favorite mommy friends. When I was there they all complimented me on how I looked. I so wish that I could see what they see. I really wish I could but I honestly see the "overly fat Kim" in the mirror. I have talked about this before and I wish I could explain it but I can't.

So moving on... I have made some major achievements lately that I haven't talked about so here I go....

For the first time in at least 8 years, I am able to wear my wedding rings AND I am able to take them off if I need to.

My scale read 258! That number is significant for 2 reasons... the first one being I am now in the 5's!!!! The second is that I only need 20 more pounds to loose to make my loss 100 pounds since I started!

So for those of you who are bad at math, I have lost a total of 80 pounds since I started!!!

November 5, 2010

Your Daily Horoscope



Too much running around might have you feeling exhausted and under the weather today, Cancer. You may have been exercising a little too much. Therefore, this is a good day to avoid exercise and get some rest. Don't push yourself too hard! This isn't a good day to plan or start a vacation. Wait a few days, as trips planned at this time could be fraught with glitches.

This is my honest to goodness horoscope for today. I wonder if somewhere in the universe someone is telling me to slow down. I have not weighed myself for fear of the number. I have been good and avoiding the candy but I find myself wanting to cheat. I know I will be sick for days but I really want that damn butterfinger that is staring at me. It's as if it is saying... "Eat me Kim! You know I am worth the little pain you will feel later! You know you want me more than the Snickers. Oh... and since there is no $100,000 bar around, eat me!!" Instead I grab my water with crystal light and pretend it is the same.
I did go to CVS and buy some more crack to help me out. (For those new to reading this: Crack = Ice Breakers sugar free gum!) I haven't been able to find the big container and the other night I had to go into CVS to buy some damn pull ups. It's like when I was dragging my fat ass to the register, all of a sudden there it was. It was kinda like someone was pointing a flashlight down on the container. I must have looked like a crazy lady. I think I almost kissed the container before I set it down on the counter. The lady at the register asked me if I was ok and I said... "I am now that I found some crack!" After seeing the concerned look on her face I thought it might be a good idea to explain that to me sugar free gum is my crack.  It got me through my diet shake days so maybe it will get me through my "woe is me" days.