Today I took h to his cooking class again.
This time I separated h from spoiledlittlepainintheass!!
Painintheass said to me... "Don't move his chair, he is my friend!"
I said... "I already did it"
PITA.... "Gammy!! That's not fair."
Me... "I don't care. This is what is best for h and so it's done... it's done... you'll be fine... now pay attention!"
While they were cooking I took my book out of my purse and TRIED to read it when a mom said... SO what are you doing?
Me? Oh I am just finalizing my ways to kill some people and you?
HUH??
I'm just kidding... I am just sitting here thinking how nice it is going to be to read a book that has no pictures and DOESN'T rhyme!
So, 5 pages into my book... I set it down to have a conversation with a woman I don't know about shit I don't remember to care about.
Note for tomorrow.... bring something to pluck my ears out with!!
After cooking class we decide we are going to swim but thanks to mother nature (on 2 counts) that one thing and the pouring rain our plans change. Instead we just sit around and watch tv and answer some emails.
I have decided not to drink any slimfasts today and I have only ate 1 cucumber.... my friend AK is moving out of state and we are going to a MEXICAN restaurant during MARGARITA HAPPY HOUR!!! Can you say.... "EMPTY CALORIES!!" YUMMY!!!
I ordered the steak asada that came with an enchilada and rice & beans. I also ate about 7 chips with salsa and 2 frozen LARGE margaritas!!
Note to AK: I know we didn't hang out and I really wanted to. I will miss you and I only wish you the best. I will mail you some cookies! sniff sniff
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
June 30, 2010
_ _ 8!!!
Dear Fuckingscale,
My mother was over my house and I was trying to entertain her. You should have shown some grace this morning because the gum I bought at the store is missing and now I feel like I am having some sort of crack withdrawals. Besides the fact that most of this shit must be water weight because I started!
Fuckyou verymuchasshole,
Kim
June 29, 2010
Ok, so today I reluctantly got on the scale...
_ _ 6!
Yeah, I didn't go up!!
Actually I didn't really expect to go up... all I had before the evil Chinese buffet was water, vitamin water zeros and 1 cucumber.
Today is a different story.
I had a vitamin water zero when it was time to take the kids to college for kids and then I drove home to pick up my mom and h Today is the first day of h's CHOCOLATE camp. Yes, that's right C.H.O.C.O.L.A.T.E cooking class.
Do you know what you get when you cross a fat hungry lady who is about to be 40 with a room full of kids and chocolate.... something resembling PMS!!
Actually I sat there and wish I could junk punch a 4 year old boy that was sitting next to h.
I am thinking that wishing you could "junk punch" a kid is probably not something I should be saying out loud!!
In all honesty, if you were there... you would feel the same way.... "Gammy, I want the GREEN stool! Gammy, I didn't get to crack the egg! Gammy, I didn't mean to demolish those 3 eggs! Gammy, I am not getting my way! Gammy! Gammy! Gammy! over and freakin' over!! At one point Gammy picked up littlespoiledpainintheass and carted him off to the bathroom while he was screaming. Now, maybe I am old fashioned but if I pick up your punk ass and you start screaming at me the next place you see your punk ass will be in the car on the way home!!!! Oh, no... not for littlespoiledpainintheass.... no.... let's just tell everyone he was screaming because he had flour in his eye.......
Sure lady, and I think sitting my fat ass on this little stool is almost as much fun as watching your little painintheass!!
Oh, if i hadn't had that vitamin water zero this morning, I would have slapped gammy!!
Luckily when it was time to ask the parents to "sample" the kids creations I had seen enough whining and booger searching to know that I wasn't going to touch that chocolate!!
After class, we went to Mimi's for lunch.
I thought to myself... WOW FOOD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY THAT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE PEELED!!!!!!!
I ordered the seared steak salad, with french onion soup, buttermilk spice muffin and hot tea.
Best choice for me off the menu??? NO! But I did get the non or low fat dressing. :)
After going home and feeling like I ate 1/2 a cow I sat my ass on my couch and watched a movie with my mom, picked the kids up from college for kids and drove back to Granbury to take my mom home. On the way to her house, I picked up Chicken Express. Again... probably not in the Weight Watcher book so fuck it. (Besides.. I am not on Weight Watchers!)
I had 3 tenders, some cole slaw, fried okra and 2 corn nuggets. I washed it down with a diet cherry 7-up.
I have a strange feeling that the scale will be higher tomorrow................
_ _ 6!
Yeah, I didn't go up!!
Actually I didn't really expect to go up... all I had before the evil Chinese buffet was water, vitamin water zeros and 1 cucumber.
Today is a different story.
I had a vitamin water zero when it was time to take the kids to college for kids and then I drove home to pick up my mom and h Today is the first day of h's CHOCOLATE camp. Yes, that's right C.H.O.C.O.L.A.T.E cooking class.
Do you know what you get when you cross a fat hungry lady who is about to be 40 with a room full of kids and chocolate.... something resembling PMS!!
Actually I sat there and wish I could junk punch a 4 year old boy that was sitting next to h.
I am thinking that wishing you could "junk punch" a kid is probably not something I should be saying out loud!!
In all honesty, if you were there... you would feel the same way.... "Gammy, I want the GREEN stool! Gammy, I didn't get to crack the egg! Gammy, I didn't mean to demolish those 3 eggs! Gammy, I am not getting my way! Gammy! Gammy! Gammy! over and freakin' over!! At one point Gammy picked up littlespoiledpainintheass and carted him off to the bathroom while he was screaming. Now, maybe I am old fashioned but if I pick up your punk ass and you start screaming at me the next place you see your punk ass will be in the car on the way home!!!! Oh, no... not for littlespoiledpainintheass.... no.... let's just tell everyone he was screaming because he had flour in his eye.......
Sure lady, and I think sitting my fat ass on this little stool is almost as much fun as watching your little painintheass!!
Oh, if i hadn't had that vitamin water zero this morning, I would have slapped gammy!!
Luckily when it was time to ask the parents to "sample" the kids creations I had seen enough whining and booger searching to know that I wasn't going to touch that chocolate!!
After class, we went to Mimi's for lunch.
I thought to myself... WOW FOOD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY THAT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE PEELED!!!!!!!
I ordered the seared steak salad, with french onion soup, buttermilk spice muffin and hot tea.
Best choice for me off the menu??? NO! But I did get the non or low fat dressing. :)
After going home and feeling like I ate 1/2 a cow I sat my ass on my couch and watched a movie with my mom, picked the kids up from college for kids and drove back to Granbury to take my mom home. On the way to her house, I picked up Chicken Express. Again... probably not in the Weight Watcher book so fuck it. (Besides.. I am not on Weight Watchers!)
I had 3 tenders, some cole slaw, fried okra and 2 corn nuggets. I washed it down with a diet cherry 7-up.
I have a strange feeling that the scale will be higher tomorrow................
June 28, 2010
June 28th
So today was stressful for me. I had to take h to the doctor. There is nothing wrong with him, it was just time for his annual visit. For all of you who know h, you know that he is a sweet boy but he is on the quirky side. He associates dr visits with S.H.O.T.S.! I told him that I didn't think he would get any shots but he was still freakin' out! So that's when I did it... I bribed a 5 year old with food. I feel so guilty about it beccause h is a BIG boy. But on this day as I stood outside getting soaked by the rain, I said.. "Be nice for mommy and Dr. Brad and I will buy you a shake from Arby's as soon as we are done!!" I also told him that I would make sure that he got more than 1 token today!!
A hearing/vision/pee in a cup/finger prick/complete look over by the doctor and 1 hour later, we were headed to the token machine with 2 tokens!! Lucky for me one token spit out 2 prizes and the other one spit out one and an empty container. h took that empty container right up to the cashier and said (with his super adorable face and 2 other prizes in his pocket...) "This one was empty." She couldn't resist his cute face and gave him another token. Only one prize came out but he was super happy!!
After the dr visit we drove to pick up my mom from Granbury (about 40 minutes away) because today is her birthday and we are going to pick her up, take her to dinner and then she is going to spend the night.
So we drive to Granbury, make the trek back to FtW and meet the rest of my family at a
FREAKIN' CHINESE BUFFETT!!!!
Yes, I ate but only because I knew we were having the buffett so I have limited myself to only cucumbers and water...
After a trip to my friend SW's house to get mom some more Miche covers, we go home and watch a movie on demand.
All in all... a good evening, besides the fact that Chinese food NO LONGER LIKES MY SYSTEM... oooohhhh gooooodneessss
My weight this morning was still _ _ 6!!
I have a strange feeling it won't be tomorrow...........
So today was stressful for me. I had to take h to the doctor. There is nothing wrong with him, it was just time for his annual visit. For all of you who know h, you know that he is a sweet boy but he is on the quirky side. He associates dr visits with S.H.O.T.S.! I told him that I didn't think he would get any shots but he was still freakin' out! So that's when I did it... I bribed a 5 year old with food. I feel so guilty about it beccause h is a BIG boy. But on this day as I stood outside getting soaked by the rain, I said.. "Be nice for mommy and Dr. Brad and I will buy you a shake from Arby's as soon as we are done!!" I also told him that I would make sure that he got more than 1 token today!!
A hearing/vision/pee in a cup/finger prick/complete look over by the doctor and 1 hour later, we were headed to the token machine with 2 tokens!! Lucky for me one token spit out 2 prizes and the other one spit out one and an empty container. h took that empty container right up to the cashier and said (with his super adorable face and 2 other prizes in his pocket...) "This one was empty." She couldn't resist his cute face and gave him another token. Only one prize came out but he was super happy!!
After the dr visit we drove to pick up my mom from Granbury (about 40 minutes away) because today is her birthday and we are going to pick her up, take her to dinner and then she is going to spend the night.
So we drive to Granbury, make the trek back to FtW and meet the rest of my family at a
FREAKIN' CHINESE BUFFETT!!!!
Yes, I ate but only because I knew we were having the buffett so I have limited myself to only cucumbers and water...
After a trip to my friend SW's house to get mom some more Miche covers, we go home and watch a movie on demand.
All in all... a good evening, besides the fact that Chinese food NO LONGER LIKES MY SYSTEM... oooohhhh gooooodneessss
My weight this morning was still _ _ 6!!
I have a strange feeling it won't be tomorrow...........
Sunday, June 27, 2010
June 27 cont.
Today I worked in H's room for a VERY LONG time......
I rearranged furniture, threw all stupid stuffed animals on the bed, threw clothes out of her closet that don't fit and started going through the piles of shit on her floor.
Seriously... how many teeny tiny pieces to Barbies are there? Have you ever stepped on an accessory to a Polly Pocket??? I would NOT recommend it AT ALL!! That SHIT hurts!!!
I was making really good progress when DSH (DumbShit Husband) suggested I clip my coupons so that I can go to the store. OMFG! Are you freakin' kidding me?? Hey asshole, go to the damn store yourself! Oh, that's right you don't know how to clip coupons....
So, I clip my fucking coupons and explain to him what they are and what to buy. "huh?" is apparently the only thing he can say. Fine!! So I tell him... You take 4/5 kids to Tom Thumb and Kroger and I'll take H to Albertson's. That way it will be faster and then I can get back to working on H's room. Deal?
An hour and a half later, H and I were home, unloading groceries and starting dinner.
BY the time genious showed up we were finished with dinner and relaxing.
I did ask G what took so long. His excuse? Besides the 2 stores I told him to go to he also went to Target and got gas at Costco. Oh, and he said that shopping with 4 kids is kinda hard when they are misbehaving. H asked him if he made them go to "Toilet Timeout".
SURPRISE SURPRISE SURPRISE, he didn't know what that was. H looked at me, with only a look a pre-hormonal 10 year old girl can give, and said "Well that figures! Toilet Timeout is really effective and gets the job done. That's why we don't act bad when we go to the store with mom!". (Sometimes a 10 year old really is smarter than a 46 year old!!)
Hopefully the scale will be nice to me for doing so much for others...............
Dinner tonight:
Steak, grilled on my indoor grill pan
spaghetti squash
cold pasta salad with NON fat Italian dressing
fresh baked french bread with smart balance spread
Fuze slenderize to drink
Yeah, I know it is a lot but I was HUNGRY!!
I rearranged furniture, threw all stupid stuffed animals on the bed, threw clothes out of her closet that don't fit and started going through the piles of shit on her floor.
Seriously... how many teeny tiny pieces to Barbies are there? Have you ever stepped on an accessory to a Polly Pocket??? I would NOT recommend it AT ALL!! That SHIT hurts!!!
I was making really good progress when DSH (DumbShit Husband) suggested I clip my coupons so that I can go to the store. OMFG! Are you freakin' kidding me?? Hey asshole, go to the damn store yourself! Oh, that's right you don't know how to clip coupons....
So, I clip my fucking coupons and explain to him what they are and what to buy. "huh?" is apparently the only thing he can say. Fine!! So I tell him... You take 4/5 kids to Tom Thumb and Kroger and I'll take H to Albertson's. That way it will be faster and then I can get back to working on H's room. Deal?
An hour and a half later, H and I were home, unloading groceries and starting dinner.
BY the time genious showed up we were finished with dinner and relaxing.
I did ask G what took so long. His excuse? Besides the 2 stores I told him to go to he also went to Target and got gas at Costco. Oh, and he said that shopping with 4 kids is kinda hard when they are misbehaving. H asked him if he made them go to "Toilet Timeout".
SURPRISE SURPRISE SURPRISE, he didn't know what that was. H looked at me, with only a look a pre-hormonal 10 year old girl can give, and said "Well that figures! Toilet Timeout is really effective and gets the job done. That's why we don't act bad when we go to the store with mom!". (Sometimes a 10 year old really is smarter than a 46 year old!!)
Hopefully the scale will be nice to me for doing so much for others...............
Dinner tonight:
Steak, grilled on my indoor grill pan
spaghetti squash
cold pasta salad with NON fat Italian dressing
fresh baked french bread with smart balance spread
Fuze slenderize to drink
Yeah, I know it is a lot but I was HUNGRY!!
June 27, 2010
Today I woke up to the smell of BACON!!!!
OMG!!! I LOVE BACON!!!
Before my skinnybitch appointments, bacon was almost a food group for me.
Now today I smell it and I almost don't care. Do you know why????
OMG!!! I LOVE BACON!!!
Before my skinnybitch appointments, bacon was almost a food group for me.
Now today I smell it and I almost don't care. Do you know why????
_ _ 6!!!!!!
That is a 2 pound difference from yesterday!!
I do not remember the last time I saw that number...
I do not remember the last time I saw that number...
So today I will go in my daughter H's room and FINALLY tackle the mound of CLEAN laundry that has been multiplying upstairs. Perhaps all this cleaning is a form of exercise I never thought possible....
Saturday, June 26, 2010
June 25 and 26, 2010
June 25th
This morning I decided not to weigh myself. It might have been because I ate 2 meals yesterday instead of 1. That's right folks I went through the drive thru of Jack in the Box and ordered myself a chicken fajita pita!! I did not have any slimfasts during the day because of my appointment with skinnybitch. Then for dinner I had a hamburger (no bun) and a cold pasta salad.
I have spent ALL day working in my daughter L's room. That's right ALL DAY!!!
You see, my foot has been so sore that I have not done ANYTHING upstairs, except clean the bathroom. I clean that once a week (sounds gross but NOBODY ever uses it.. mine is so much more appealing). Well I went upstairs yesterday armed with some lysol and a box of trashbags. Yesterday I focused just on her room. I rearranged furniture and added some shelves to hold the excessive amout of stuff that she has.
How does a 7 year old accumulate so much shit??? RIDICULOUS!!!
Well, I made her help me which is why it took so long. I figured if I had to be stuck up there with the air on the fritz then she better be too!!
I went upstairs at 10 in the morning and didn't come down until 9 at night!!
By the time I came down I was so tired AND starving!
All day I had countless glasses of water and 2 slimfasts.
For dinner (cooked by G) spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic bread.
June 26th
This morning I weighed myself and it said _ _ 8! So I am at least maintaining.???
Today I have spent the majority of the day upstairs in L's closet. I completely emptied it out. I went through all her clothes... I made a pile to give to my friend, I made a pile to go to Goodwill and I made a pile to go into her closet. SEVERAL HOURS later I told G I was done and I went to get my swimsuit on. I ate a subway sandwhich... ordered off the "Jarod menu" and went down the red slide twice!! Besides my sandwhich all I have had was 1 slimfast!!!
Hopefully the scale will be kind because that sandwhich wasn't!!!
This morning I decided not to weigh myself. It might have been because I ate 2 meals yesterday instead of 1. That's right folks I went through the drive thru of Jack in the Box and ordered myself a chicken fajita pita!! I did not have any slimfasts during the day because of my appointment with skinnybitch. Then for dinner I had a hamburger (no bun) and a cold pasta salad.
I have spent ALL day working in my daughter L's room. That's right ALL DAY!!!
You see, my foot has been so sore that I have not done ANYTHING upstairs, except clean the bathroom. I clean that once a week (sounds gross but NOBODY ever uses it.. mine is so much more appealing). Well I went upstairs yesterday armed with some lysol and a box of trashbags. Yesterday I focused just on her room. I rearranged furniture and added some shelves to hold the excessive amout of stuff that she has.
How does a 7 year old accumulate so much shit??? RIDICULOUS!!!
Well, I made her help me which is why it took so long. I figured if I had to be stuck up there with the air on the fritz then she better be too!!
I went upstairs at 10 in the morning and didn't come down until 9 at night!!
By the time I came down I was so tired AND starving!
All day I had countless glasses of water and 2 slimfasts.
For dinner (cooked by G) spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic bread.
June 26th
This morning I weighed myself and it said _ _ 8! So I am at least maintaining.???
Today I have spent the majority of the day upstairs in L's closet. I completely emptied it out. I went through all her clothes... I made a pile to give to my friend, I made a pile to go to Goodwill and I made a pile to go into her closet. SEVERAL HOURS later I told G I was done and I went to get my swimsuit on. I ate a subway sandwhich... ordered off the "Jarod menu" and went down the red slide twice!! Besides my sandwhich all I have had was 1 slimfast!!!
Hopefully the scale will be kind because that sandwhich wasn't!!!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
June 24 cont
Ok, I had my appt with skinnybitch.
I told her I lost 12 pounds!!
She told me I lost 7 1/2!
WTF? Are you kidding me???
I got good news and bad news....
Bad news... didn't acheive 30 pound weight loss so Dr. Takemyfatawaynow won't schedule me for surgery UNTIL I achieve his goal.
Oh joy.... I get to stick with my modified liquid diet and go back in 2 weeks, the best part.... I get to take my kids AND it will also be my 40th birthday!!
Good news... If I ever acheive this unattainable goal then I can have the surgery because I WAS APPROVED by the insurance!!!!!!!!!!!!
Must focus on baby steps now...........
I told her I lost 12 pounds!!
She told me I lost 7 1/2!
WTF? Are you kidding me???
I got good news and bad news....
Bad news... didn't acheive 30 pound weight loss so Dr. Takemyfatawaynow won't schedule me for surgery UNTIL I achieve his goal.
Oh joy.... I get to stick with my modified liquid diet and go back in 2 weeks, the best part.... I get to take my kids AND it will also be my 40th birthday!!
Good news... If I ever acheive this unattainable goal then I can have the surgery because I WAS APPROVED by the insurance!!!!!!!!!!!!
Must focus on baby steps now...........
June 24, 2010
Last night I ate 12 wings from Buffalo Wild Wings!!
I had 6 parmesean garlic and 6 honey bbq!
To say that I wasn't expecting much on the scale this morning would be a lie.
I got up to pee AGAIN and peeked around the corner.... will the scale be nice today?
HOLY SHIT!!!! I can't freakin' believe it!!!!
Oh, in case you are wondering, I only had water to drink last night instead of the SUPER D DUPER DELICIOUS BLACK CHERRY MOJITO!!!!
On a sidenote... it is sad that the waiter knows what everybody is going to order as soon as you sit down??? He was shocked I only ordered water also. ;)
Well... today is judgement day... I have my appointment with skinnybitch at 11.
Anybody out there want to go with me and hold my hand???
Hello??
Hello??
Buhler???
I had 6 parmesean garlic and 6 honey bbq!
To say that I wasn't expecting much on the scale this morning would be a lie.
I got up to pee AGAIN and peeked around the corner.... will the scale be nice today?
_ _ 7!!
HOLY SHIT!!!! I can't freakin' believe it!!!!
Oh, in case you are wondering, I only had water to drink last night instead of the SUPER D DUPER DELICIOUS BLACK CHERRY MOJITO!!!!
On a sidenote... it is sad that the waiter knows what everybody is going to order as soon as you sit down??? He was shocked I only ordered water also. ;)
Well... today is judgement day... I have my appointment with skinnybitch at 11.
Anybody out there want to go with me and hold my hand???
Hello??
Hello??
Buhler???
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
June 23, 2010
GOOD MORNING!!!
Want to know why I am so chipper??
No, it is not because I was awaked at 1:30 by some horny old man saying he REALLY REALLY LIKED my hair! (You know the 46 year old man likes your hair when he uses the word REALLY twice in one sentence!!!)
No, it is because I weighed myself today!!!
Wanna know what it said? DO you? Do you really???
Yes, my friends... that is a freakin' 4 pound difference!!!!!!
WOOO WHOOOO!!!
Suck it skinnybitch... you will see a difference in my weight tomorrow!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
SIDEBAR: I am not an alcoholic and YES I know that drinking can effect my weight. Please stop sending me the following....
internet articles, magazine articles, reports from the surgeon general and my personal favorite... a phone call explaining your dissapointment.
I LOVE Pinot Grigio and yes I know it is empty calories.
Do I care that it is empty calories?
Sometimes!
However, on the days that I don't it is because it happens to be one of those days where you throw your hands in the air and say "SERIOUSLY?? IS THAT ALL YOU GOT TO THROW AT ME TODAY??? WTF!!!"
Want to know why I am so chipper??
No, it is not because I was awaked at 1:30 by some horny old man saying he REALLY REALLY LIKED my hair! (You know the 46 year old man likes your hair when he uses the word REALLY twice in one sentence!!!)
No, it is because I weighed myself today!!!
Wanna know what it said? DO you? Do you really???
_ _ 9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, my friends... that is a freakin' 4 pound difference!!!!!!
WOOO WHOOOO!!!
Suck it skinnybitch... you will see a difference in my weight tomorrow!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
SIDEBAR: I am not an alcoholic and YES I know that drinking can effect my weight. Please stop sending me the following....
internet articles, magazine articles, reports from the surgeon general and my personal favorite... a phone call explaining your dissapointment.
I LOVE Pinot Grigio and yes I know it is empty calories.
Do I care that it is empty calories?
Sometimes!
However, on the days that I don't it is because it happens to be one of those days where you throw your hands in the air and say "SERIOUSLY?? IS THAT ALL YOU GOT TO THROW AT ME TODAY??? WTF!!!"
June 22 cont
Ok, so yes I had a rough morning and was ready to throw in the towel. Then a friend of mine told me "Why are you choosing to fail when success is still an option?" (Jillian Michaels)
Thank you SZ for bringing me back to reality and for making me understand that even though I feel alone at home in this difficult quest, there are people pulling for me. Thank you and if I've never said it before.... I love you and I feel blessed to be your friend. This does not just apply to SZ... it applies to ALL of my friends. Your support means the world to me! Hanging onto that thought I decided to push forward.......
I started off by eating some edamame for breakfast! They are NOT on my "approved list" but I love them and I feel satisfied after eating them.
Suck it slimfast... you were replaced for breakfast!!
After my yummy breakfast I went to get my hair done. SBW is a certified HAIR GURU!! This chick is awesome and extrememly talented. I am the person that walks in and says... Do whatever you want with this mess because I don't give a shit anymore... I even gave her the option of shaving it and picking out a nice wig. Thankfully, she didn't listen to me about shaving my head and instead she used her mad coloring/cutting skills to make me look almost human again. The whole time I was in there, I chatted with her, read my Food Network Magazine and drank my water out of my "Texas Diva" cup. I even had my eyebrows and upper lip region waxed. (Don't even say it LK or AC........ )
When I got home I drank a slimfast and went to pick up h from his day camp... THANK YOU HALLMARK BAPTIST FOR HAVING A 3 DAY CAMP FROM 9-3... You guys are real life savers!!!!!!
Once we were home I ate a cucumber and left a short while later to pick up the other 4.
Around 5:30 we went to Hooters (kids eat free on Tuesdays... no matter how many kids you have!!) and met G for dinner.
After dinner we went to the store to buy more cucumbers, celery, lunch stuff for the kids and SUGAR FREE POPSICLES!! I ate 2 of those yummy popsicles when we got home!!
All in all, I had an unknown amount of water, edamame, slimfast, cucumber, wings from Hooters and 2 sugar free popsicles.... that's not a lot of food but I seriously didn't feel hungry.
Thank you SZ for bringing me back to reality and for making me understand that even though I feel alone at home in this difficult quest, there are people pulling for me. Thank you and if I've never said it before.... I love you and I feel blessed to be your friend. This does not just apply to SZ... it applies to ALL of my friends. Your support means the world to me! Hanging onto that thought I decided to push forward.......
I started off by eating some edamame for breakfast! They are NOT on my "approved list" but I love them and I feel satisfied after eating them.
Suck it slimfast... you were replaced for breakfast!!
After my yummy breakfast I went to get my hair done. SBW is a certified HAIR GURU!! This chick is awesome and extrememly talented. I am the person that walks in and says... Do whatever you want with this mess because I don't give a shit anymore... I even gave her the option of shaving it and picking out a nice wig. Thankfully, she didn't listen to me about shaving my head and instead she used her mad coloring/cutting skills to make me look almost human again. The whole time I was in there, I chatted with her, read my Food Network Magazine and drank my water out of my "Texas Diva" cup. I even had my eyebrows and upper lip region waxed. (Don't even say it LK or AC........ )
When I got home I drank a slimfast and went to pick up h from his day camp... THANK YOU HALLMARK BAPTIST FOR HAVING A 3 DAY CAMP FROM 9-3... You guys are real life savers!!!!!!
Once we were home I ate a cucumber and left a short while later to pick up the other 4.
Around 5:30 we went to Hooters (kids eat free on Tuesdays... no matter how many kids you have!!) and met G for dinner.
After dinner we went to the store to buy more cucumbers, celery, lunch stuff for the kids and SUGAR FREE POPSICLES!! I ate 2 of those yummy popsicles when we got home!!
All in all, I had an unknown amount of water, edamame, slimfast, cucumber, wings from Hooters and 2 sugar free popsicles.... that's not a lot of food but I seriously didn't feel hungry.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
June 22, 2010
Today I feel like a big flat slob....
I weighed this morning and it says _ _ 3!!!!
In case you are keeping track that is 5 fuckin' pounds HIGHER than the last time I weighed!
I don't get it.
I try really hard.
WTF is going on?
Am I just destined to be fat forever?
If I am going to go up instead of down then maybe I should just eat whatever the fuck I want to eat and worry about exploding out of my skin later......
A poem to sum up this day so far.........
I weighed this morning and it says _ _ 3!!!!
In case you are keeping track that is 5 fuckin' pounds HIGHER than the last time I weighed!
I don't get it.
I try really hard.
WTF is going on?
Am I just destined to be fat forever?
If I am going to go up instead of down then maybe I should just eat whatever the fuck I want to eat and worry about exploding out of my skin later......
A poem to sum up this day so far.........
TODAY
Today I really hate my life.
Today I wish I wasn't a wife.
Today I hate the mess in my house.
Today I really hate my spouse!
Today I strongely dislike my kids.
Today I cussed alot, I sure did.
Today I hate my shedding dog.
Today I want to kiss a frog.
Today I really hate slimfast.
Today I wish I lived in the past.
Today if you were in my head.
.. you would want to crawl in bed.
Today I really hate my life.
Aren't you glad I'm not your wife?
Monday, June 21, 2010
June 21, 2010
Ok, so I have decided that my theme song for the day is "OMG!"!!
First of all I went to bed at 4:30 AM only to wake up at 6 AM!!! I have been working on newsletter for the state wide multiples club and I have to start from FUCKING scratch!!
Oh, did I mention that when "the lady in charge" said... "I am going to have the deadline the 15th. Do you think you can get it posted by the 30th?" You bet I replied... not knowing that I couldn't just plug n chug all the new information into an older version.
Now, I am scrambling and I don't have some things that I need. I have asked SEVERAL times but apparently people are just too busy to answer simple questions. So fine... I will add what I think needs to be in there and if it's not then you have yourself to blame for not answering me!
So, I have worked on this thing practically all day while h has entertained himself with Disney channel. Now, before you judge... just know that I DO NOT LET HIM SIT IN FRONT OF THE TV ALL DAY EVERYDAY... Today is just one of those days where that is the best place for him. So here I am trucking away and my damn computer shuts down in the middle of what I am working on..... WTF??? Seriously??? Is there a storm outside?? No, it is fucking 110 degrees outside if you factor in the heat index... which I do!! SO, then tell me why in the bloody hell is my computer shutting off!!! Well... I get the piece of shit powered back on and yeah... LOST 4 COMPLETED PAGES!!!!!
Today is one of those days where I have followed all the rules... no cheating... 2 slimfasts with NO CUCUMBERS AND NO CELERY.... just 2 slimfasts!!!! I think my body was preparing me for tonight...
I have NO mommy playgroups scheduled this week and I desperately need one that includes alcohol!!!
I didn't weigh myself because I feel bloated and I am already depressed.......
Tonight's dinner
Steak, grilled on my indoor pan
pasta salad (using FAT FREE dressing)
steamed corn
dinner roll (the yummy ones that you buy at Sams that make your mouth drool!!!)
OR
I could trade it all for a nice tall bottle of Pinot Grigio........
Decisions in life are too hard.............
(If you can read this... donations of Pinot Grigio are accepted ANYTIME day or night!!)
First of all I went to bed at 4:30 AM only to wake up at 6 AM!!! I have been working on newsletter for the state wide multiples club and I have to start from FUCKING scratch!!
Oh, did I mention that when "the lady in charge" said... "I am going to have the deadline the 15th. Do you think you can get it posted by the 30th?" You bet I replied... not knowing that I couldn't just plug n chug all the new information into an older version.
Now, I am scrambling and I don't have some things that I need. I have asked SEVERAL times but apparently people are just too busy to answer simple questions. So fine... I will add what I think needs to be in there and if it's not then you have yourself to blame for not answering me!
So, I have worked on this thing practically all day while h has entertained himself with Disney channel. Now, before you judge... just know that I DO NOT LET HIM SIT IN FRONT OF THE TV ALL DAY EVERYDAY... Today is just one of those days where that is the best place for him. So here I am trucking away and my damn computer shuts down in the middle of what I am working on..... WTF??? Seriously??? Is there a storm outside?? No, it is fucking 110 degrees outside if you factor in the heat index... which I do!! SO, then tell me why in the bloody hell is my computer shutting off!!! Well... I get the piece of shit powered back on and yeah... LOST 4 COMPLETED PAGES!!!!!
Today is one of those days where I have followed all the rules... no cheating... 2 slimfasts with NO CUCUMBERS AND NO CELERY.... just 2 slimfasts!!!! I think my body was preparing me for tonight...
I have NO mommy playgroups scheduled this week and I desperately need one that includes alcohol!!!
I didn't weigh myself because I feel bloated and I am already depressed.......
Tonight's dinner
Steak, grilled on my indoor pan
pasta salad (using FAT FREE dressing)
steamed corn
dinner roll (the yummy ones that you buy at Sams that make your mouth drool!!!)
OR
I could trade it all for a nice tall bottle of Pinot Grigio........
Decisions in life are too hard.............
(If you can read this... donations of Pinot Grigio are accepted ANYTIME day or night!!)
Sunday, June 20, 2010
June 20, 2010
Wake up to find 3 extra people in my bed and 2 on my couch....
I didn't start off with this many???
I decide that today is the 2 week mark but I am NOT going to weigh. Part of me is PETRIFIED over the results of a super yummy dinner that gave me heart burn throughout the night.
It's Fathers Day and G is making breakfast... french toast and BACON!!! BACON, BACON, BACON!!!!!! I join them at the table with my cucumber and slimfast. Not so politely I say "Get that FREAKIN' bacon on the other side of the table before I seriously injur someone!!!"
After breakfast H asks me if we can make something out of her CUPCAKE cookbook from the library?? SERIOUSLY, when is this nightmare going to end??? At first I say No but after getting the "dissapointment look" from G I ask her which one she would like to make. All of a sudden we are making Peanut Butter Fudge cupcakes with Fudge Peanut Butter frosting... and I am having fun!!! I haven't baked any sweets lately because I can't eat them. I realized today that I LOVE baking desserts. It is my true passion and I can do it and have fun without sampling!! It is possible! I can do it and I did do it!!
H's frosting came out a little thick so I added a few things to make it creamier and then I put it into a ziploc bag, cut the corner and piped it out onto our fresh cupcakes. H looked at me like I was a genious!!!! This was HUGE!! Lately she has been inhabited by "Alien H" with the overload on hormones but today I was the "smart mom"!!! YEAH!!!! I have Alien H on hold while me and my sweet H are bonding while baking!!! (Hey that would be a great name for a cookbook!!)
Once the cupcakes were done, H decided she didn't want to bake with me anymore.... something to do with Wii Sports Resort.
Well, I wasn't done.... I wanted to cook something else so I did. I made Butterscotch Fudge!! I don't know how it tastes but it sure looks good and I am pretty sure it smells good too!!!
Finally I asked h if he wanted to help me bake something. At first he said "no thanks" but then I reminded him of a cooking class he is taking next week so he came running in. I let him pour, measure and crack eggs. He had so much fun and when we were done we had made Butterscotch Brownies!!
G FINALLY got up from the computer and asked me where I wanted to go for dinner. Dinner?? I couldn't believe it was dinner time already. I told him not to worry about it because I had it "under control"!
Dinner this evening....
bacon wrapped filet
green beans
cheese tortellini salad
and NON sweet tea
followed by a little Wii Fit Plus.... that rythm boxing robot has NOTHING on me!!
I didn't start off with this many???
I decide that today is the 2 week mark but I am NOT going to weigh. Part of me is PETRIFIED over the results of a super yummy dinner that gave me heart burn throughout the night.
It's Fathers Day and G is making breakfast... french toast and BACON!!! BACON, BACON, BACON!!!!!! I join them at the table with my cucumber and slimfast. Not so politely I say "Get that FREAKIN' bacon on the other side of the table before I seriously injur someone!!!"
After breakfast H asks me if we can make something out of her CUPCAKE cookbook from the library?? SERIOUSLY, when is this nightmare going to end??? At first I say No but after getting the "dissapointment look" from G I ask her which one she would like to make. All of a sudden we are making Peanut Butter Fudge cupcakes with Fudge Peanut Butter frosting... and I am having fun!!! I haven't baked any sweets lately because I can't eat them. I realized today that I LOVE baking desserts. It is my true passion and I can do it and have fun without sampling!! It is possible! I can do it and I did do it!!
H's frosting came out a little thick so I added a few things to make it creamier and then I put it into a ziploc bag, cut the corner and piped it out onto our fresh cupcakes. H looked at me like I was a genious!!!! This was HUGE!! Lately she has been inhabited by "Alien H" with the overload on hormones but today I was the "smart mom"!!! YEAH!!!! I have Alien H on hold while me and my sweet H are bonding while baking!!! (Hey that would be a great name for a cookbook!!)
Once the cupcakes were done, H decided she didn't want to bake with me anymore.... something to do with Wii Sports Resort.
Well, I wasn't done.... I wanted to cook something else so I did. I made Butterscotch Fudge!! I don't know how it tastes but it sure looks good and I am pretty sure it smells good too!!!
Finally I asked h if he wanted to help me bake something. At first he said "no thanks" but then I reminded him of a cooking class he is taking next week so he came running in. I let him pour, measure and crack eggs. He had so much fun and when we were done we had made Butterscotch Brownies!!
G FINALLY got up from the computer and asked me where I wanted to go for dinner. Dinner?? I couldn't believe it was dinner time already. I told him not to worry about it because I had it "under control"!
Dinner this evening....
bacon wrapped filet
green beans
cheese tortellini salad
and NON sweet tea
followed by a little Wii Fit Plus.... that rythm boxing robot has NOTHING on me!!
June 19, 2010
Ok so I spent the day cleaning upstairs. Now if you really know me then you know my house is a disaster on a regular basis. The sad thing is that I don't really give a shit most of the time. Truth be told, I don't really like this house. We bought it because it was basically the first one I "kinda liked" before I was put on hospital bedrest with the triplets. Now that my kids are getting older I am finding out more and more what I want changed with this house. There are so many things I think it would just be quicker to sell it or tear it down and start over. Yesterday when I went upstairs I would have preferred the latter.
It was HORRIBLE!!!
I go up there once a week to clean that bathroom because the kids only use it to brush their teeth. They are always using the 1/2 bath or my toilet. Well every week when I go up there I run past the bedrooms via the obstacle course my children have left on the way.
So today I decided that it was time I worked on some bedrooms. I started with h's. I mean he is 5 so technically I should always clean his room. I have been so lazy for the past year that I guess I kinda expected him to do it and then I got angry when I had to. Which if you think about it is absolutely ridiculous!! I should have been doing it all along.
So when I got done with h's room 5 hours later I moved myself to the bathroom.
All these people use this bathroom for is brushing their teeth so why is there toothpaste ALL over the floor. I even found it UNDER the rug? Seriously? Do they just stand in the bathroom and squeeze the toothpaste onto the floor instead of their toothbrush? I really wonder.
All this time I was cleaning I only had 2 slimfasts, in addition to the cups of water and plain black coffee! Oh, did I mention I cleaned his room AFTER I cleaned the beer fridge downstairs? Yeah it is one of those fridges that is so old you have to MANUALLY defrost it?
So I keep sweating because there is something wrong with my ac upstairs. About 4:00 my friend SV called and asked me if I wanted to have a mommy playdate!! YEAH!! I am going to be rescued in about 2 hours!
So SV picks me up and immediately we try to figure out where to go. How about dinner and a movie? She tries to talk me into sushi but once she mentions something about shrimp I think... RED LOBSTER!! Do you know how long it has been since we went to Red Lobster??
So we walk in and I know I am in trouble.... I start thinking ok, I have an extra 190 calories because I didn't drink that 3rd slimfast..... bad thinking.....
I start off with a banana berry colada (ok.. bananas=potassium) giggle!!
Then I get a plate that has scallops with bacon, lobster tail and shrimp on a bed of seasoned corn and mashed potatoes. I did ask for a non-fat dressing with my side salad and they told me that they didn't have any. ARE YOU SERIOUS??? No non-fat dressing choices?? Ridiculous! So I order the balsamic vinegarette. To top it off I had one of their cheesy garlic biscuits!! Oh, to say I felt full was an understatement.
I waddle my way out to SV's car and we realize we missed the movie. There is another one in a few hours so we decide we will go to our friend KG's house, kidnap her and take her to the movies with us. KG said she couldn't go but we did run into my friend JH so we talked to her for awhile.
When we got to the theatre I bought a drink ONLY. Yes, this theatre had the DO IT YOURSELF BUTTER DISPENSER AND a cheese shaker!! Oh good grief... BUTTER & CHEESE... good thing I am beyond stuffed!!
Hey that Coke Zero tasted so good and made me run to the bathroom during the movie.... I hate that, especially when the main guy is Russell Crowe!! Oh... so yummy!!!!
It was HORRIBLE!!!
I go up there once a week to clean that bathroom because the kids only use it to brush their teeth. They are always using the 1/2 bath or my toilet. Well every week when I go up there I run past the bedrooms via the obstacle course my children have left on the way.
So today I decided that it was time I worked on some bedrooms. I started with h's. I mean he is 5 so technically I should always clean his room. I have been so lazy for the past year that I guess I kinda expected him to do it and then I got angry when I had to. Which if you think about it is absolutely ridiculous!! I should have been doing it all along.
So when I got done with h's room 5 hours later I moved myself to the bathroom.
All these people use this bathroom for is brushing their teeth so why is there toothpaste ALL over the floor. I even found it UNDER the rug? Seriously? Do they just stand in the bathroom and squeeze the toothpaste onto the floor instead of their toothbrush? I really wonder.
All this time I was cleaning I only had 2 slimfasts, in addition to the cups of water and plain black coffee! Oh, did I mention I cleaned his room AFTER I cleaned the beer fridge downstairs? Yeah it is one of those fridges that is so old you have to MANUALLY defrost it?
So I keep sweating because there is something wrong with my ac upstairs. About 4:00 my friend SV called and asked me if I wanted to have a mommy playdate!! YEAH!! I am going to be rescued in about 2 hours!
So SV picks me up and immediately we try to figure out where to go. How about dinner and a movie? She tries to talk me into sushi but once she mentions something about shrimp I think... RED LOBSTER!! Do you know how long it has been since we went to Red Lobster??
So we walk in and I know I am in trouble.... I start thinking ok, I have an extra 190 calories because I didn't drink that 3rd slimfast..... bad thinking.....
I start off with a banana berry colada (ok.. bananas=potassium) giggle!!
Then I get a plate that has scallops with bacon, lobster tail and shrimp on a bed of seasoned corn and mashed potatoes. I did ask for a non-fat dressing with my side salad and they told me that they didn't have any. ARE YOU SERIOUS??? No non-fat dressing choices?? Ridiculous! So I order the balsamic vinegarette. To top it off I had one of their cheesy garlic biscuits!! Oh, to say I felt full was an understatement.
I waddle my way out to SV's car and we realize we missed the movie. There is another one in a few hours so we decide we will go to our friend KG's house, kidnap her and take her to the movies with us. KG said she couldn't go but we did run into my friend JH so we talked to her for awhile.
When we got to the theatre I bought a drink ONLY. Yes, this theatre had the DO IT YOURSELF BUTTER DISPENSER AND a cheese shaker!! Oh good grief... BUTTER & CHEESE... good thing I am beyond stuffed!!
Hey that Coke Zero tasted so good and made me run to the bathroom during the movie.... I hate that, especially when the main guy is Russell Crowe!! Oh... so yummy!!!!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
June 18, 2010
All right, truth be told...
I went after the lucious layers of meat and cheese last night.
I just couldn't help myself.
I only had 2 slimfasts all day with some celery and cucumbers.
I was hungry and just didn't feel like having a small salad for dinner.
It was good and I ate every yummy bite.
The problem.... my stomach was pissed off at me!
I couldn't stay out of my toilet room. This might be too much TMI but it was leaving my system out both ends!! I couldn't believe it... my system is getting used to boring food and nasty shakes to be able to handle something as wonderful as lasagna. My friend AG gave me some Weight Watcher lasagna recipes to try in case I want to do that again.
Ok... so I wake up 5 different times last night with a freakin' charlie horse. I am not sure why it is called this. I think a more appropriate name would be...
iknowyouaresleepingsoundbutiamabouttodosomethingtoyouthatwillmakeyouwanttoripyourlegoff!!
I know, charlie horse is smaller so I will just call it "WTF is that pain???"
Seriously, I would like to know what I have done to the universe to deserve such pain over and over and over again. It was so bad, I couldn't even move my toes. That "WTF is that pain???" went from the middle of my calf to the tip of my toes. I imagine I resembled something like a fat retired ballerina on crack! OUCH!!! That shit hurts!!
So when I finally woke up to "Hey honey, the door's locked. heyheyhey!" to say that I was not in the mood for some hey hey hey, was a little bit of an understatement. I tried explaining to G how much my leg was sore because of the repetetive charlie horses and he kept telling me that he would try not to touch my sore leg. (Thanks for the sympathy horny old dog!)
Later... he told me that I should eat some bananas.... NOT ON MY APPROVED LIST DIPSHIT!!
So, he then suggested I start taking the vitamins I bought and never opened.
Why must men always offer solutions?? I was hoping for a little sympathy and a cuddle. Instead I got something I wasn't really in the mood for.
I did decide I wasn't going to weigh myself today.
Instead I got dressed and surprised my kids by telling them I would take them to see TS3! They couldn't believe it. G said he didn't want to go and so we told him "BYE!"
Before we even got there my kids asked if we could get some popcorn. OMG!! POPCORN!!! My absolute favorite food in the whole world is BUTTERED POPCORN WITH MILK DUDS at the movies. UGH!! This is a nightmare, I never even thought about popcorn until now.
So we walk into the theatre and there it is... FRESHLY POPPED POPCORN and I can smell it!! Not only can I smell the popcorn but I can smell the butter they put on top. I was drooling I just know it. We pass the concession stand and find our seats. I go back out with H to buy the yummy goodness!! I ask for a #1... LARGE popcorn (1 free refill) and 2 large sodas and then I ask for 4 pickle bags. I told the guy we wanted it buttered and he pointed to the DO IT YOUR FREAKIN' SELF BUTTER dispenser!!! HOLY SHIT!!! The time I can add as much damn butter as I want and I can't have it? NO WAY!! I am cheating for sure!!! What's a little popcorn going to do??
As I reach into my purse for my wallet I notice my baggie of freshly peeled and sliced cucumbers staring at me. I realized then that I didn't need the popcorn as much as my mind was telling me that I did. I handed the bucket to H and asked her to butter the popcorn... sparingly.
When we got into the theater I handed one cup to K&D and the other one went to H&L. I pulled the empty cup out of my purse and made h his own with the other 2 sodas. Then I filled each pickle bag up with popcorn and handed it to each child except H. I told her she could hold it and if anyone wanted a refill then she was in charge.
As the movie started everyone ate popcorn while I ate my cucumbers......
When we left H refilled the popcorn, got a little overzealous on the butter and realized that sometimes too much of a good thing tastes really bad a few hours later.
We got home from the movies, changed our clothes and went swimming at L's subdivision pool with some other multiple mommies and their kids. We had so much fun and as we were leaving h decided to dive bomb H and ended up with a double bloody nose. I am not sure I have ever seen that much blood before. When we threw the towel in the trash I don't think there was that much white on it. Poor little guy finally stopped and we went home. I thought about taking everyone to our subdivision pool since we already had our suits on but my leg was still sore and everyone acted tired. Instead the kids played in the backyard while G installed new motion lights and I brushed I's hair. That dog just loves to have his hair brushed.
Dinner tonight....
hamburgers, cooked on my indoor grill pan, cheese tortellini pasta salad and baked beans.
Again.. only 2 slimfasts today instead of 3.
I went after the lucious layers of meat and cheese last night.
I just couldn't help myself.
I only had 2 slimfasts all day with some celery and cucumbers.
I was hungry and just didn't feel like having a small salad for dinner.
It was good and I ate every yummy bite.
The problem.... my stomach was pissed off at me!
I couldn't stay out of my toilet room. This might be too much TMI but it was leaving my system out both ends!! I couldn't believe it... my system is getting used to boring food and nasty shakes to be able to handle something as wonderful as lasagna. My friend AG gave me some Weight Watcher lasagna recipes to try in case I want to do that again.
Ok... so I wake up 5 different times last night with a freakin' charlie horse. I am not sure why it is called this. I think a more appropriate name would be...
iknowyouaresleepingsoundbutiamabouttodosomethingtoyouthatwillmakeyouwanttoripyourlegoff!!
I know, charlie horse is smaller so I will just call it "WTF is that pain???"
Seriously, I would like to know what I have done to the universe to deserve such pain over and over and over again. It was so bad, I couldn't even move my toes. That "WTF is that pain???" went from the middle of my calf to the tip of my toes. I imagine I resembled something like a fat retired ballerina on crack! OUCH!!! That shit hurts!!
So when I finally woke up to "Hey honey, the door's locked. heyheyhey!" to say that I was not in the mood for some hey hey hey, was a little bit of an understatement. I tried explaining to G how much my leg was sore because of the repetetive charlie horses and he kept telling me that he would try not to touch my sore leg. (Thanks for the sympathy horny old dog!)
Later... he told me that I should eat some bananas.... NOT ON MY APPROVED LIST DIPSHIT!!
So, he then suggested I start taking the vitamins I bought and never opened.
Why must men always offer solutions?? I was hoping for a little sympathy and a cuddle. Instead I got something I wasn't really in the mood for.
I did decide I wasn't going to weigh myself today.
Instead I got dressed and surprised my kids by telling them I would take them to see TS3! They couldn't believe it. G said he didn't want to go and so we told him "BYE!"
Before we even got there my kids asked if we could get some popcorn. OMG!! POPCORN!!! My absolute favorite food in the whole world is BUTTERED POPCORN WITH MILK DUDS at the movies. UGH!! This is a nightmare, I never even thought about popcorn until now.
So we walk into the theatre and there it is... FRESHLY POPPED POPCORN and I can smell it!! Not only can I smell the popcorn but I can smell the butter they put on top. I was drooling I just know it. We pass the concession stand and find our seats. I go back out with H to buy the yummy goodness!! I ask for a #1... LARGE popcorn (1 free refill) and 2 large sodas and then I ask for 4 pickle bags. I told the guy we wanted it buttered and he pointed to the DO IT YOUR FREAKIN' SELF BUTTER dispenser!!! HOLY SHIT!!! The time I can add as much damn butter as I want and I can't have it? NO WAY!! I am cheating for sure!!! What's a little popcorn going to do??
As I reach into my purse for my wallet I notice my baggie of freshly peeled and sliced cucumbers staring at me. I realized then that I didn't need the popcorn as much as my mind was telling me that I did. I handed the bucket to H and asked her to butter the popcorn... sparingly.
When we got into the theater I handed one cup to K&D and the other one went to H&L. I pulled the empty cup out of my purse and made h his own with the other 2 sodas. Then I filled each pickle bag up with popcorn and handed it to each child except H. I told her she could hold it and if anyone wanted a refill then she was in charge.
As the movie started everyone ate popcorn while I ate my cucumbers......
When we left H refilled the popcorn, got a little overzealous on the butter and realized that sometimes too much of a good thing tastes really bad a few hours later.
We got home from the movies, changed our clothes and went swimming at L's subdivision pool with some other multiple mommies and their kids. We had so much fun and as we were leaving h decided to dive bomb H and ended up with a double bloody nose. I am not sure I have ever seen that much blood before. When we threw the towel in the trash I don't think there was that much white on it. Poor little guy finally stopped and we went home. I thought about taking everyone to our subdivision pool since we already had our suits on but my leg was still sore and everyone acted tired. Instead the kids played in the backyard while G installed new motion lights and I brushed I's hair. That dog just loves to have his hair brushed.
Dinner tonight....
hamburgers, cooked on my indoor grill pan, cheese tortellini pasta salad and baked beans.
Again.. only 2 slimfasts today instead of 3.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
June 17
4:20 am...
h: "Mommy! Mommy! MOMMY!"
me: What is it dear? (thinking to myself what the hell do you want?)
h: "Can I hug you?" (taking back what I was thinking a second ago)
me: Ok, sure....
h: "I can't the door is locked"
At this point all things are running through my head. G only locks the door when... you know.... and last night I am pretty sure I passed out... aahhh.... went to sleep as soon as I hit the bed.
There must have been some pre-meditated sex thoughts on the part of the man who is sleeping though all of this.
So, I get up and unlock the door and think.. Great now I have to pee!
h: "MOMMY!"
me: (as I race to the toilet) What dear?
h: "I said I wanted to hug you!"
me: Ok, follow me into the toilet room and you can hug me there.
h: "Are you going to poop?"
me: Aahh.... no
h: "Ok then"
Adorable 5 year old gives me a hug and heads to the couch in my bedroom.
By now it is 4:30, I've peed so I figure it is ok to weigh myself.
I have been depressed at maintaining _ _ 0 so I hope this is better........
_ _ 7!!!!! OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!
I am so excited that I want to wake everyone up and tell them but the 4:32 on the nightstand is staring at me.
I do a little dance in the bathroom.
As I am dancing I slip on some spilled baby powder and bang my knee onto the tile.
I will remind myself that a 3 pound difference is HUGE!!
I will stick to my diet and make my family their lasagna tonight(they didn't get it last night because they went to Buffalo Wild Wings... .99 cent kids meals on Wed)
Not sure yet what I will eat but I know that skinny tastes better than lucious layers of meat and cheese!
In the meantime... I am going to go ice my left knee! OUCH!!!
h: "Mommy! Mommy! MOMMY!"
me: What is it dear? (thinking to myself what the hell do you want?)
h: "Can I hug you?" (taking back what I was thinking a second ago)
me: Ok, sure....
h: "I can't the door is locked"
At this point all things are running through my head. G only locks the door when... you know.... and last night I am pretty sure I passed out... aahhh.... went to sleep as soon as I hit the bed.
There must have been some pre-meditated sex thoughts on the part of the man who is sleeping though all of this.
So, I get up and unlock the door and think.. Great now I have to pee!
h: "MOMMY!"
me: (as I race to the toilet) What dear?
h: "I said I wanted to hug you!"
me: Ok, follow me into the toilet room and you can hug me there.
h: "Are you going to poop?"
me: Aahh.... no
h: "Ok then"
Adorable 5 year old gives me a hug and heads to the couch in my bedroom.
By now it is 4:30, I've peed so I figure it is ok to weigh myself.
I have been depressed at maintaining _ _ 0 so I hope this is better........
_ _ 7!!!!! OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!
I am so excited that I want to wake everyone up and tell them but the 4:32 on the nightstand is staring at me.
I do a little dance in the bathroom.
As I am dancing I slip on some spilled baby powder and bang my knee onto the tile.
I will remind myself that a 3 pound difference is HUGE!!
I will stick to my diet and make my family their lasagna tonight(they didn't get it last night because they went to Buffalo Wild Wings... .99 cent kids meals on Wed)
Not sure yet what I will eat but I know that skinny tastes better than lucious layers of meat and cheese!
In the meantime... I am going to go ice my left knee! OUCH!!!
June 16 cont.
Ok, so tonight was kinda like a girl's night at SW's. I completely forgot about it but I am so glad I went. My friend L (aka gorgeousblondeandskinny) was there and she finally got to meet my friend A. I knew they would get along because I adore them both so much. The sad thing is that A is moving to another state and I'm really sad about it. I wish we could have hung out more together but life always seems to get in the way. I will make it a point to visit her in Virginia. I have always wanted to go there!
So... moving on. I knew that I was going to SW's house so I decided to only have 2 slimfasts during the day instead of 3. I ate cucumbers and celery whenever I felt hungry and when I drove h to DQ to get him that dipped cone I wasn't swayed at all (well maybe a little..).
I get to SW's house, Chilled Pinot Grigio in hand, and immediately start writing her checks. You see SW sells Miche bags (shout out). They are the purses that you can change the outside to go with whatever you are wearing. Now, if you really know me then you know I get tired of my purses quick. The problem.. I usually buy Dooney purses so my boredom gets expensive.
Well I bought one of these bags a while ago when A had a party. Except, I didn't buy the one you see on TV, I bought the big one. This sucker is huge (think ally sheedy's purse in the breakfast club!). I LOVE THIS PURSE. I immediately got the giraffe print because even as obsessed with Dooney that I am, I REFUSE to pay $400 for a purse!!
SO, I have been walking around with this giraffe print since the beginning of May and I am already bored with it. I even took the cover off one day and just walked around with a black bag.
I started off with 2 new covers. Then realized that I should buy my mom another one for her birthday. Then as I drank more wine I kept looking at 2 more....
By the time the night was over I had 5 covers and only 1 of them was for my mom.
Now I don't know which one to put on!
Dinner tonight...
3/4 bottle of Pinot Grigio
scoop of chicken/pasta salad
some strawberries, raspberries, and blueberries
a mini croissant
some pieces of the best Gouda cheese (YUMMY!!)
PLEASE scale be kind....
So... moving on. I knew that I was going to SW's house so I decided to only have 2 slimfasts during the day instead of 3. I ate cucumbers and celery whenever I felt hungry and when I drove h to DQ to get him that dipped cone I wasn't swayed at all (well maybe a little..).
I get to SW's house, Chilled Pinot Grigio in hand, and immediately start writing her checks. You see SW sells Miche bags (shout out). They are the purses that you can change the outside to go with whatever you are wearing. Now, if you really know me then you know I get tired of my purses quick. The problem.. I usually buy Dooney purses so my boredom gets expensive.
Well I bought one of these bags a while ago when A had a party. Except, I didn't buy the one you see on TV, I bought the big one. This sucker is huge (think ally sheedy's purse in the breakfast club!). I LOVE THIS PURSE. I immediately got the giraffe print because even as obsessed with Dooney that I am, I REFUSE to pay $400 for a purse!!
SO, I have been walking around with this giraffe print since the beginning of May and I am already bored with it. I even took the cover off one day and just walked around with a black bag.
I started off with 2 new covers. Then realized that I should buy my mom another one for her birthday. Then as I drank more wine I kept looking at 2 more....
By the time the night was over I had 5 covers and only 1 of them was for my mom.
Now I don't know which one to put on!
Dinner tonight...
3/4 bottle of Pinot Grigio
scoop of chicken/pasta salad
some strawberries, raspberries, and blueberries
a mini croissant
some pieces of the best Gouda cheese (YUMMY!!)
PLEASE scale be kind....
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
June 16, 2010
Ok, I think I might have a little hangover. How is that even possible? I only had those 2 drinks. Oh... it was that skinny patron margarita... 100 of the best calories I have ever put in my mouth. That drink tops the charts on taste!
Ok... moving on... I need to step on the scale..........
_ _ 0! WTF??? ARE YOU FREAKIN' KIDDING ME? Is there some sort of conspiracy out there that is refusing to let me go down on this damn weight scale??
To say that I am mad is an understatement!
Yesterday I had a pissy day (literally and figuratively).
I had to pee like every 5 minutes. Seriously, I peed so much that when I looked in the toilet before I flushed (oh come on, you know you look!) my pee was clear! CLEAR?? Is that even good for you?? I know my friend L aka gorgeousblondeandskinny, told me once that when you pee it should not be yellow? I was always perplexed by this. Aren't we told all our life that pee is yellow? You know... "Watch out where the huskies go... and don't you eat that yellow snow"
So, until yesterday I actually thought she was full of shit. Let me tell you something, when you pee every 5 minutes you see that pee is no longer yellow.
Yeah and a woman that has had 5 kids does not need to pee every 5 minutes. It's bad enough when I have to sneeze or cough.
Now, today I will follow the rules... AGAIN!!!
I will drink my 3 slimfasts (only had 2 yesterday knowing I would be drinking! smart... I know!)
I will eat my cucumbers and celery
I will go to Aldi to buy more sugar-free popsicles (LOVIN' ALDI... gallon of milk.. $1.69!!)
I will be screwed when it comes time to have a sensible dinner because my family wants lasagna.
Wait a minute... its Keeno night at S's house!
If I get to go there then I can have wine for dinner again.
WOO HOO!!!
Must think of some sort of excuse to go.....
G took off work early yesterday so I could go to my FWMOM mtg.
G will have to take off work early Thursday so I can take part in "beating a dead horse".
Today is Wednesday, hump day... would it be possible to have him come home early 3 days in a row???
Ok... moving on... I need to step on the scale..........
_ _ 0! WTF??? ARE YOU FREAKIN' KIDDING ME? Is there some sort of conspiracy out there that is refusing to let me go down on this damn weight scale??
To say that I am mad is an understatement!
Yesterday I had a pissy day (literally and figuratively).
I had to pee like every 5 minutes. Seriously, I peed so much that when I looked in the toilet before I flushed (oh come on, you know you look!) my pee was clear! CLEAR?? Is that even good for you?? I know my friend L aka gorgeousblondeandskinny, told me once that when you pee it should not be yellow? I was always perplexed by this. Aren't we told all our life that pee is yellow? You know... "Watch out where the huskies go... and don't you eat that yellow snow"
So, until yesterday I actually thought she was full of shit. Let me tell you something, when you pee every 5 minutes you see that pee is no longer yellow.
Yeah and a woman that has had 5 kids does not need to pee every 5 minutes. It's bad enough when I have to sneeze or cough.
Now, today I will follow the rules... AGAIN!!!
I will drink my 3 slimfasts (only had 2 yesterday knowing I would be drinking! smart... I know!)
I will eat my cucumbers and celery
I will go to Aldi to buy more sugar-free popsicles (LOVIN' ALDI... gallon of milk.. $1.69!!)
I will be screwed when it comes time to have a sensible dinner because my family wants lasagna.
Wait a minute... its Keeno night at S's house!
If I get to go there then I can have wine for dinner again.
WOO HOO!!!
Must think of some sort of excuse to go.....
G took off work early yesterday so I could go to my FWMOM mtg.
G will have to take off work early Thursday so I can take part in "beating a dead horse".
Today is Wednesday, hump day... would it be possible to have him come home early 3 days in a row???
June 15 last part
Ok, I have been in a funk today but I believe it has been remedied.
My dinner tonight..
a scoop of pariasan salad
2 scoops of Costco's chicken salad
a scoop of strawberries/blueberries mixture
A VERY LARGE Bud Light (Apparently there is no such thing as a Shiner Bock Light)
1 skinny Patron Margarita.... OMG!!! It was twice the price of the beer, 1/4 the size (if that!) and if I would have had 2... I would still be on my ass at Chilis!
Good night friends.....
My dinner tonight..
a scoop of pariasan salad
2 scoops of Costco's chicken salad
a scoop of strawberries/blueberries mixture
A VERY LARGE Bud Light (Apparently there is no such thing as a Shiner Bock Light)
1 skinny Patron Margarita.... OMG!!! It was twice the price of the beer, 1/4 the size (if that!) and if I would have had 2... I would still be on my ass at Chilis!
Good night friends.....
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
June 15th Part 3
Ok, so I survived sorting my laundry without too many mishaps.
I drove h to Museum school and as promised I walked around.. not for the 2 hours but for 1 hr 15 min. I visited the new ENERGY BLAST exhibit... really cool... my kids would have LOVED it!! It is a 4D thing so you know it's cool.
I TOOK THE DAMN STAIRS upstairs to see the Leonardo Da Vinci exhibit. There must have been 2 or 3 school groups in there. Now, don't get me wrong... I love kids... After all I have 5 of them (7 if you count the dog and G). However, today I am sans kids and I'm kinda liking it. So... when I go into an exhibit that I have been wanting to see and all I see are kids... sorry but I walked out. I saw most of it before I decided I just couldn't take it anymore.
As I walked towards the stairs the elevator door opened in front of me. It was like some sort of sign so I got in. (I would hate to disrupt the order of things!)
I walked to the new 'Parent Resource Center' in the education building and read the Fort Worth Child Magazine from cover to cover... Did you know that if you drink 2 liters of beer a day you can prevent osteoarthritis? Seriously it was in an article I read! (Bless the hearts of the people who figured this out!).
Now it is time to go pick up HKL&D and drop them off at Hooters with G so I can go to my FWMOM meeting. My friend L is going to my driver again. I sure do love that gorgeousblondeskinnybitch! ;)
Dinner tonight? Not sure yet but it might include a beer because I feel like I deserve some, besides my bones have been feeling sore lately. haha
I drove h to Museum school and as promised I walked around.. not for the 2 hours but for 1 hr 15 min. I visited the new ENERGY BLAST exhibit... really cool... my kids would have LOVED it!! It is a 4D thing so you know it's cool.
I TOOK THE DAMN STAIRS upstairs to see the Leonardo Da Vinci exhibit. There must have been 2 or 3 school groups in there. Now, don't get me wrong... I love kids... After all I have 5 of them (7 if you count the dog and G). However, today I am sans kids and I'm kinda liking it. So... when I go into an exhibit that I have been wanting to see and all I see are kids... sorry but I walked out. I saw most of it before I decided I just couldn't take it anymore.
As I walked towards the stairs the elevator door opened in front of me. It was like some sort of sign so I got in. (I would hate to disrupt the order of things!)
I walked to the new 'Parent Resource Center' in the education building and read the Fort Worth Child Magazine from cover to cover... Did you know that if you drink 2 liters of beer a day you can prevent osteoarthritis? Seriously it was in an article I read! (Bless the hearts of the people who figured this out!).
Now it is time to go pick up HKL&D and drop them off at Hooters with G so I can go to my FWMOM meeting. My friend L is going to my driver again. I sure do love that gorgeousblondeskinnybitch! ;)
Dinner tonight? Not sure yet but it might include a beer because I feel like I deserve some, besides my bones have been feeling sore lately. haha
June 15 cont.
So far today I think I have peed about 10 times (NO JOKE).
I am thinking I might have to go to CVS for some Depends, or whatever kind of adult diaper that astronaut was wearing on her kooky trip.
The reason?? Everytime I go pee... disaster strikes....
- h decided to make himself a sandwhich with peanut butter
- i have had to change the tablecloth
- i have had to literally pry a peanut butter saturated knife out of my dog's mouth
- dog + peanut butter + kitchen tile = ME washing my feet
- dog + laundry room door left open = destroyed panties (REMIND myself not to kiss dog today!)
- water from fridge + mini water bottle = sore bottom for mom
- baked cheetos + 5 year old = change of clothes (GREAT! More laundry!)
I have decided to go get a handle on this laundry before I fall again!
June 15, 2010
As I sit here and sip on my slimfast I am riddled with guilt.
I lied to myself and whoever is reading this. The ironic thing is that I HATE liers. I mean deception is my biggest pet peeves and yet I did it to myself.
When I went to Chili's... I ordered the "healthy alternative" only to have one of my sides.... LOADED MASHED POTATOES not the side salad like I said. I lied and now I feel sick to my stomach. I am sorry for lying. I have no excuse. It seems that I am the "token fat friend" in my circle of friends and nobody else wants to be that person.
I have sparked a diet revolution within my circle because everyone says that I am motivating them. Me? I am not your motivation... my fat is. You know that your darkest secret is to wish that you NEVER look like me. I lied because I didn't want to dissapoint the people that are rooting for me. The one I dissapointed the most was me. I am doing this for ME not G, H, K, L, D, h or I (the dog)! Just ME!!! I am allowed to be selfish once in a while and today is my day.
I will no longer lie.... I will no longer lie...
My honesty points for the day....
I lied to myself and whoever is reading this. The ironic thing is that I HATE liers. I mean deception is my biggest pet peeves and yet I did it to myself.
When I went to Chili's... I ordered the "healthy alternative" only to have one of my sides.... LOADED MASHED POTATOES not the side salad like I said. I lied and now I feel sick to my stomach. I am sorry for lying. I have no excuse. It seems that I am the "token fat friend" in my circle of friends and nobody else wants to be that person.
I have sparked a diet revolution within my circle because everyone says that I am motivating them. Me? I am not your motivation... my fat is. You know that your darkest secret is to wish that you NEVER look like me. I lied because I didn't want to dissapoint the people that are rooting for me. The one I dissapointed the most was me. I am doing this for ME not G, H, K, L, D, h or I (the dog)! Just ME!!! I am allowed to be selfish once in a while and today is my day.
I will no longer lie.... I will no longer lie...
My honesty points for the day....
- I weighed myself yesterday and it said _ _ 0 which is up 2 freakin' pounds. I doubt the mashed potatoes did it but still... that royally sucks!
- Yesterday I tried to starve myself all day to make up for the 2 pounds gained... instead I ate more at dinner than I should have... lesson defeated....
- I HATE water!! Absolutely hate it. I have tried adding lemons/limes/even vodka and it doesn't help!
- Today I have drank 2 cups of water, not vitamin water zero or sobe life water, actual 2 cups of water from the fridge!!!
- I have already eaten a cucumber and some celery.
- My house today looks like a disaster more than usual. I am behind on my laundry and I don't really give a shit.
- My spouse yelled at me this morning about the laundry and I cried when he left for work.
- My 10 year old daughter thinks I am lying to her when I tell her other people think I'm funny. Apparently all she thinks of me is that I am mean and always tell her what to do.
- My 5 year old told me that I need to stop yelling at him and I told him to start obeying more.
- My triplets hate the "Yes I am a triplet! Now stop staring!" shirts that I bought them and refuse to wear them again.
- One of my 7 year olds told my 10 year old to be nice to me. (favorite child of the week!)
- I am drinking a slimfast right now wishing that it was a Crimson Tide from Eskimo Hut even though it is 9 in the morning.
- My version of publisher won't support some old newsletters so I have to start from scratch and I am super pissed off about it.
- My FWMOM meeting is tonight and I am trying to decide if a LARGE Shiner on draft would be better for dinner OR a LARGE Bud Light!
- The scale today said _ _ 0! I maintained instead of lost. I am really really mad about this one and feel somewhat defeated. On a side note.. I have already peed about 4 times so maybe tomorrow's weight will be different?
- I put my tennis shoes on today so I can walk around the Museum for 2 hours istead of shop.
- I spent over $300 at Marshall's yesterday and the majority of what I bought was new underwear for the boys. (h only wears Calvin Klein... not suppose to be a snobby thing, but he is big and those are comfortable. Besides, it helps me distinguish his underwear from K & D. Hard to blame h for peed underwear if they are Hanes brand!)
- I hate my hair.
- I have to go to another pool committee meeting so we can "beat a dead horse". SERIOUSLY PEOPLE GET OVER IT!!!!!
- I DO NOT FEEL BAD FOR KICKING A KID OFF OUR SWIMTEAM. HE DOES NOT LIVE HERE. HIS MOTHER IS AN EMPLOYEE OF THE POOL NOT A RESIDENT. Does this make me a bad person? NO!! His mother should have known better. Everyone involved should have known better. I pay $500 a year in HOA dues so that my kids can swim for 2 1/2 months out of the year. The pool is EXCLUSIVELY for the residents and their guests. If this makes me a bitch, then....
HELLO MY NAME IS KIM AND I AM A BITCH!!!!!
GET THE FUCK OVER IT ALREADY AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, if that doesn't make up for my deception... nothing will.
Any questions???
Monday, June 14, 2010
June 14 cont.
Ok, today I am not feeling very well.
That sirloin steak dinner last night did NOT agree with my starving system at all!
I have had the poops all day and I still feel bloated.
I have been drinking so much water that I peed at Marshall's twice in the 1 1/2 hours I was shopping in there!
Oh, I am going to have to find something else to do while h is at Museum school otherwise this week is going to be very pricey!!!
I picked up my other 4 from College for Kids and all they wanted to do was go home. We were suppose to get H some new glasses and fix L's glasses but they just wanted me to go home. Sometime this week we will have to go to the library to get signed up for their summer reading program. I don't think there are enough hours in the day for this week.
I am glad that I finally got dinner in the oven because my stomach is grumbling lots of odd noises.
Dinner tonight...
Kim's Italian Chicken
Here's how I cook it....
Preheat 350
4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts
1/2 bottle FAT FREE Italian dressing
Cook for 35-40 min.
Remove chicken from baking dish
Add 1 cup instant uncooked rice
Add frozen veg on top (broccoli, carrots and water chestnuts work great)
1 cup chicken broth
Replace chicken
Cook for 20 min
At this time I usually add some Italian seasoning, french fried onions and more dressing.
Tonight I am only adding the seasoning and a tad more dressing.
And there you have it...
Hopefully I can restrain myself from eating the entire dish........
That sirloin steak dinner last night did NOT agree with my starving system at all!
I have had the poops all day and I still feel bloated.
I have been drinking so much water that I peed at Marshall's twice in the 1 1/2 hours I was shopping in there!
Oh, I am going to have to find something else to do while h is at Museum school otherwise this week is going to be very pricey!!!
I picked up my other 4 from College for Kids and all they wanted to do was go home. We were suppose to get H some new glasses and fix L's glasses but they just wanted me to go home. Sometime this week we will have to go to the library to get signed up for their summer reading program. I don't think there are enough hours in the day for this week.
I am glad that I finally got dinner in the oven because my stomach is grumbling lots of odd noises.
Dinner tonight...
Kim's Italian Chicken
Here's how I cook it....
Preheat 350
4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts
1/2 bottle FAT FREE Italian dressing
Cook for 35-40 min.
Remove chicken from baking dish
Add 1 cup instant uncooked rice
Add frozen veg on top (broccoli, carrots and water chestnuts work great)
1 cup chicken broth
Replace chicken
Cook for 20 min
At this time I usually add some Italian seasoning, french fried onions and more dressing.
Tonight I am only adding the seasoning and a tad more dressing.
And there you have it...
Hopefully I can restrain myself from eating the entire dish........
June 14, 2010
Ok, I am up before my alarm goes off again!
I must be drinking more water because I have never peed this much in my life.
Question of the day.....
Should I weigh myself everyday??
I am scared to step on the scale. What if I go up? Will I get distracted? What if it goes down? Will I eat less?
I sit on the toilet and wonder these things.....
I drink a glass of water, eat a cucumber and go back to sleep for almost 2 hours!
All kids are up and getting ready. Cereal bowls are all over the table and cereal is all over the table and floor. My dog is crying at the back door waiting for someone to let him out. I am in the big freezer searching for the bourbon chicken....
Chicken in the oven, the rest of the lunch stuff is in their boxes, dog outside,
h mad because he is up early,
K is whining more than I can handle,
L is pissed off because I haven't had time to brush her hair yet,
D is crying because I woke him up from the couch by turning on the fan,
H is bitching about something or someone (not sure... she is 10 going on smartass) and
G is complaining to me about not getting enough sleep because I let the kids sleep in our bed.
WTF? Are you kidding me?
Last thing I remember.... I was looking at the newspaper, 2 kids were on the bed with me looking at the ads, the other 3 were on my couch watching Discovery channel and G was on the computer in another room. Yet, somehow, this is my fault. I fell asleep and whenever he came to bed he didn't have the cajones to kick them out. Yeah, not my fault buddy... this time it's your fault!
Decide not to step on scale.... I will wait another day or two...... Or should I.......
I must be drinking more water because I have never peed this much in my life.
Question of the day.....
Should I weigh myself everyday??
I am scared to step on the scale. What if I go up? Will I get distracted? What if it goes down? Will I eat less?
I sit on the toilet and wonder these things.....
I drink a glass of water, eat a cucumber and go back to sleep for almost 2 hours!
All kids are up and getting ready. Cereal bowls are all over the table and cereal is all over the table and floor. My dog is crying at the back door waiting for someone to let him out. I am in the big freezer searching for the bourbon chicken....
Chicken in the oven, the rest of the lunch stuff is in their boxes, dog outside,
h mad because he is up early,
K is whining more than I can handle,
L is pissed off because I haven't had time to brush her hair yet,
D is crying because I woke him up from the couch by turning on the fan,
H is bitching about something or someone (not sure... she is 10 going on smartass) and
G is complaining to me about not getting enough sleep because I let the kids sleep in our bed.
WTF? Are you kidding me?
Last thing I remember.... I was looking at the newspaper, 2 kids were on the bed with me looking at the ads, the other 3 were on my couch watching Discovery channel and G was on the computer in another room. Yet, somehow, this is my fault. I fell asleep and whenever he came to bed he didn't have the cajones to kick them out. Yeah, not my fault buddy... this time it's your fault!
Decide not to step on scale.... I will wait another day or two...... Or should I.......
Sunday, June 13, 2010
June 13 cont.
Ok, so the kids figured out where all their classes will be for the next 3 weeks. Somehow I am thinking they will still "freak out" tomorrow.
After visiting TCC we went to my home away from home...
COSTCO!
Man, I love that place. G is still embarrased when people who work there stop and talk to us but I like it.
This time I had to buy some lunch stuff for the kids.... baked lays variety pack, 100 calorie pack pretzels, strawberries, grapes and bourbon chicken.
I already had the small water bottles at home so now they are good to go.
h will be in Museum school this week. That means that I will be by myself from 1-3!!
I have been wondering what I can be doing while he is gone. Should I go to the museum and walk around? (We do have a membership) Should I go shopping at that FABULOUS Marshall's on University?
Difficult decisions to be made... hahaha
Oh, I got off track. After Costco we talked G into taking us out to dinner to Chilis. Thanks to FWMOM I had 5 kids meal coupons so it was easy to talk him into it.
As we were driving, G turned the bus in the opposite direction and said he was going to go to Sams.
WTF? Are you kidding me?? I have walked around Costco watching you people eat sample after sample, I have only had 2 slimfasts today and now instead of driving to Chilis you are "running into Sams". To say that I am pissed would be an understatement. My stomach is making noises that a stomach should not make.
As I sit and fester in the bus , I am wondering what is so important to buy RIGHT NOW while I am popping sugar free gum in my mouth like they are little pieces of crack.
G comes back to the bus carrying a case of slimfast!
I can't believe the man has done this. He does not approve of this but yet... somehow he knows that he might want to start.
A small step for G a huge leap for ME!!
Dinner tonight was Chilis 8 oz sirloin with steamed veggies, side salad with non fat dressing and a water. Actually I ordered something that was noted with a little chili (the "healthier alternative")
Total for the day....
2 slimfasts
3 bottles of water
3 Sobe lifewaters
2 vitamin water zeros
Chilis dinner
and
countless pieces of sugar free gum
After visiting TCC we went to my home away from home...
COSTCO!
Man, I love that place. G is still embarrased when people who work there stop and talk to us but I like it.
This time I had to buy some lunch stuff for the kids.... baked lays variety pack, 100 calorie pack pretzels, strawberries, grapes and bourbon chicken.
I already had the small water bottles at home so now they are good to go.
h will be in Museum school this week. That means that I will be by myself from 1-3!!
I have been wondering what I can be doing while he is gone. Should I go to the museum and walk around? (We do have a membership) Should I go shopping at that FABULOUS Marshall's on University?
Difficult decisions to be made... hahaha
Oh, I got off track. After Costco we talked G into taking us out to dinner to Chilis. Thanks to FWMOM I had 5 kids meal coupons so it was easy to talk him into it.
As we were driving, G turned the bus in the opposite direction and said he was going to go to Sams.
WTF? Are you kidding me?? I have walked around Costco watching you people eat sample after sample, I have only had 2 slimfasts today and now instead of driving to Chilis you are "running into Sams". To say that I am pissed would be an understatement. My stomach is making noises that a stomach should not make.
As I sit and fester in the bus , I am wondering what is so important to buy RIGHT NOW while I am popping sugar free gum in my mouth like they are little pieces of crack.
G comes back to the bus carrying a case of slimfast!
I can't believe the man has done this. He does not approve of this but yet... somehow he knows that he might want to start.
A small step for G a huge leap for ME!!
Dinner tonight was Chilis 8 oz sirloin with steamed veggies, side salad with non fat dressing and a water. Actually I ordered something that was noted with a little chili (the "healthier alternative")
Total for the day....
2 slimfasts
3 bottles of water
3 Sobe lifewaters
2 vitamin water zeros
Chilis dinner
and
countless pieces of sugar free gum
June 13, 2010
Ok, yesterday was a rough day. I wake up, no longer in a bunch of pain and I hobble to the bathroom.
What will the scale say today? Will it be good? Did I go up again? I am so nervous I don't want to weigh myself.
I am scared.... I am starting to sweat.... I am so scared.... I feel nervous.... I want this to say a lower number but I don't know if it will.
Shit Kim, get over it and step on....
_ _ 8!!!!!! That is 2 freaking pounds!!!
All I can think is WOO HOO!! I am back on track!!!
I will no longer be swayed by yummy pizza and lushes bowls of pasta. I am motivated.
It has been 1 week and I have lost 9 pounds!
Today's activities.... show kids their classrooms at TCC for College for Kids and go to grocery store for more cucumbers and sugar free popsicles. ;)
What will the scale say today? Will it be good? Did I go up again? I am so nervous I don't want to weigh myself.
I am scared.... I am starting to sweat.... I am so scared.... I feel nervous.... I want this to say a lower number but I don't know if it will.
Shit Kim, get over it and step on....
_ _ 8!!!!!! That is 2 freaking pounds!!!
All I can think is WOO HOO!! I am back on track!!!
I will no longer be swayed by yummy pizza and lushes bowls of pasta. I am motivated.
It has been 1 week and I have lost 9 pounds!
Today's activities.... show kids their classrooms at TCC for College for Kids and go to grocery store for more cucumbers and sugar free popsicles. ;)
June 12 cont.
Oh busy day over here.
Must remain focused on goal.. not stress factors.
Started off my day pissed off because I went up a pound.
I walk into donut shop down the street and instead of thinking I smell donuts, I smell fat.
I am saying what Erma Bombeck said (or at least I think it was her...) "_____ doesn't taste as good as skinny" I don't remember what started that sentence but today it is donuts!
I order a 2 dozen variety pack and 2 dozen donut holes which are another of my weaknesses!
I give them to the kids and G and I go into my room to wrap presents for a birthday party. As I wrap I drink my slimfast s..l..o...w...l...y....
Took h to my friend G's kids birthday party... hot dogs, cake, CHIPS, nachos, coca cola everywhere. I know my goal so I grab a water. h decides he wants a plate. I feel my mouth salivating as I put nacho cheese on tostitos and on his hot dog. (OMG!! A hot dog with nacho cheese!! Do I hear the angels singing again?? No.... I will not fall into this temptation... I can do this!!)
As he is sitting down with his golden goodness I decide to grab a plate. It is 12 and all I have had is a slimfast and 3 bottles of water. My plate consists of the following...
a piece of watermelon, 2 pieces of broccoli, 2 baby carrots and 2 little tomatoes. Yes my friends you read that right... tomatoes! I have NEVER in my entire life enjoyed tomatoes but today they looked like candy and almost tasted like it.
I turned down the 2 birthday cakes and told h it was time to go because I had to open the clubhouse at 1:30 for H's soccer party and it was now 1:15. h gives the kids their presents and we leave. h cries all the way to the clubhouse because he wasn't able to see what other presents they got. I tell him that he can play with T & T another day and then he can see what they got. This seems to help him out.
Ok, so it is now 2 and the soccer party is in full swing. After G almost set the pool's grass on fire the hot dogs are now on the grill and the coach's wife is cooking them.
Hot dogs, chips, soda and MORE FREAKIN' CAKE!!
I resist ALL and grab a couple of bottles of water! I am starting to Rock at this temptation stuff.
5:20... all guests are gone and I am cleaning the clubhouse. I am left with a tray of hot dogs and the leftover cake. (These soccer parents are clearly oblivious to my weight struggles!)
I give my family the leftovers at the pool and they are so happy and in love with me now. ;)
I decide that I haven't had to much to eat all day and I haven't had my slimfasts either. I have been so busy I haven't had time to eat.
I even went down the red slide 3 times today because some kids were afraid to go up the stairs alone. (Yeah I am a bitch to some but a saint to others... )
My dinner is 2 grilled hot dogs with no buns, about 8 strawberries and 2 cups of green grapes. (did I measure the grapes.. no but that is how many it seemed like) Again, NO CAKE!!
Go home, put my jammies on, take 2 vicodin (foot is throbbing) and drink 2 bottles of water.
Must remain focused on goal.. not stress factors.
Started off my day pissed off because I went up a pound.
I walk into donut shop down the street and instead of thinking I smell donuts, I smell fat.
I am saying what Erma Bombeck said (or at least I think it was her...) "_____ doesn't taste as good as skinny" I don't remember what started that sentence but today it is donuts!
I order a 2 dozen variety pack and 2 dozen donut holes which are another of my weaknesses!
I give them to the kids and G and I go into my room to wrap presents for a birthday party. As I wrap I drink my slimfast s..l..o...w...l...y....
Took h to my friend G's kids birthday party... hot dogs, cake, CHIPS, nachos, coca cola everywhere. I know my goal so I grab a water. h decides he wants a plate. I feel my mouth salivating as I put nacho cheese on tostitos and on his hot dog. (OMG!! A hot dog with nacho cheese!! Do I hear the angels singing again?? No.... I will not fall into this temptation... I can do this!!)
As he is sitting down with his golden goodness I decide to grab a plate. It is 12 and all I have had is a slimfast and 3 bottles of water. My plate consists of the following...
a piece of watermelon, 2 pieces of broccoli, 2 baby carrots and 2 little tomatoes. Yes my friends you read that right... tomatoes! I have NEVER in my entire life enjoyed tomatoes but today they looked like candy and almost tasted like it.
I turned down the 2 birthday cakes and told h it was time to go because I had to open the clubhouse at 1:30 for H's soccer party and it was now 1:15. h gives the kids their presents and we leave. h cries all the way to the clubhouse because he wasn't able to see what other presents they got. I tell him that he can play with T & T another day and then he can see what they got. This seems to help him out.
Ok, so it is now 2 and the soccer party is in full swing. After G almost set the pool's grass on fire the hot dogs are now on the grill and the coach's wife is cooking them.
Hot dogs, chips, soda and MORE FREAKIN' CAKE!!
I resist ALL and grab a couple of bottles of water! I am starting to Rock at this temptation stuff.
5:20... all guests are gone and I am cleaning the clubhouse. I am left with a tray of hot dogs and the leftover cake. (These soccer parents are clearly oblivious to my weight struggles!)
I give my family the leftovers at the pool and they are so happy and in love with me now. ;)
I decide that I haven't had to much to eat all day and I haven't had my slimfasts either. I have been so busy I haven't had time to eat.
I even went down the red slide 3 times today because some kids were afraid to go up the stairs alone. (Yeah I am a bitch to some but a saint to others... )
My dinner is 2 grilled hot dogs with no buns, about 8 strawberries and 2 cups of green grapes. (did I measure the grapes.. no but that is how many it seemed like) Again, NO CAKE!!
Go home, put my jammies on, take 2 vicodin (foot is throbbing) and drink 2 bottles of water.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
June 12, 2010
I ate pizza last night....
scale says.....
_ _ 0! SHIT SHIT SHIT I went UP 1 pound!!
Wrong way Kim, wrong way!
I knew I should have had that slimfast last night instead of pizza and spaghetti.
I should have listened to myself.
Lesson learned... no more!
I will get back on track.
I will forget about all the negative things I've heard about myself this week.
I will no longer take everything so personnel.
I am not an evil person who is setting out to destroy the lives of children.
I will not be responsible for another person's bad decisions.
I can no longer take the guilt of people who don't know me.
FUCK YOU pool monitor! You don't know me! You think you know me but you don't. I will continue to go to the pool with or without your disgusted looks, sarcasm and down right rudeness! I will be happy!
You and your mom can take your opinions and SUCK IT! You are the ones in the wrong... not me! Guilt trips won't work anymore!!! I am DONE with you people!
From now on I am focusing on my REAL friends who follow rules and don't judge other people when things don't go their way!
I think it is time I step off the pool committee because it is clear to me now that the rules we try to obide by will never be followed to my satisfaction.
Your sense of entitlement is not worth my stress.
scale says.....
_ _ 0! SHIT SHIT SHIT I went UP 1 pound!!
Wrong way Kim, wrong way!
I knew I should have had that slimfast last night instead of pizza and spaghetti.
I should have listened to myself.
Lesson learned... no more!
I will get back on track.
I will forget about all the negative things I've heard about myself this week.
I will no longer take everything so personnel.
I am not an evil person who is setting out to destroy the lives of children.
I will not be responsible for another person's bad decisions.
I can no longer take the guilt of people who don't know me.
FUCK YOU pool monitor! You don't know me! You think you know me but you don't. I will continue to go to the pool with or without your disgusted looks, sarcasm and down right rudeness! I will be happy!
You and your mom can take your opinions and SUCK IT! You are the ones in the wrong... not me! Guilt trips won't work anymore!!! I am DONE with you people!
From now on I am focusing on my REAL friends who follow rules and don't judge other people when things don't go their way!
I think it is time I step off the pool committee because it is clear to me now that the rules we try to obide by will never be followed to my satisfaction.
Your sense of entitlement is not worth my stress.
Friday, June 11, 2010
June 11 cont
Just thought I would clear some stuff up since I am being honest....
- Yes I can be a total bitch sometimes but that is ONLY if you piss me off!
- No, I am not a heartless cow. Every decision I make is thought of extensively.
- I NEVER left my triplets home alone. Although I have to admit that I thought about it several times.
- I did have H in charge of K,L,D and h one time for about 15 while I ran to CVS to get barf medicine for K,L,D and h. (Mmmm, wonder why I didn't take them with me???)
- I am a loyal friend. If you tell me a secret I will keep it a secret unless you decide to knock off someone then I would have to think about it.
- I love my husband my kids and even my stupid (but very cute) dog. All while knowing that they will be the cause of my death one day.
- I am obsessed with Ralph Lauren. Sorry. I know it sounds snobby but I just can't help myself. I have tried to stay away but I can't. I think I might need a support group but I am not ready to join it yet.
- I am honest and straight forward so if you ask for my opinion don't get pissed off if you don't like my answer.
- The boy I was in love with in highschool now resembles my husband. (Damn you facebook for ruining my "what if" fantasy.
- I listen to all types of music... Train, Eminem, The Cult... pretty much anything but country.
- When I found out I was pregnant with quads I laughed so hard I nearly peed my pants. I actually thought that the dr was going to have me "admitted" because I couldn't stop laughing.
- The ONLY OB dr visit G ever went to was the one where we were 16 weeks and we found out that 1 of our quads was not going to make it.
- When I found out I was pregnant with h I was so shocked and told G I didn't know how it happened because I didn't remember having sex....
- Someone once told me that they thought H was spoiled and I was a horrible mother. That someone got punched in the face the same day. :)
- I once told someone to stop calling me until she had taken her medicine. (Refer to first bullet point)
- In case you have never heard it... here is my driveway story.... I was a senior in high school and I came home REALLY past curfew. My dad (at the time) met me at the door. I put my hand on his shoulder and told him we had to move. He asked why. My reply? "Because our driveway is too fucking long!". The next morning the neighbors DOWN the street asked us to move my car from their driveway.
Now that I got that off my chest....
Is there anything else that you want to know.
June 11, 2010
_ _ 9!
Ok, 1 pound is not bad when you're dinner was 3 glasses of wine. I would have preferred the entire bottle but I didn't want to be greedy. ;)
Today was busy. I feel like I have worked out. I went to family day at the camp 4/5 kids have been to this week. G and I took turns visiting each child's activity. We didn't go to all and there were some hurt feelings but we did watch each child doing something. I mean we had 4 kids who all did 3 activities... the math is not good when it was just the 2 of us.
After we witnessed all the fun (totally signing them up for this next year!) we went to the gym to have lunch.
Lunch? ut oh. I didn't plan on eating lunch but there is a giant chick fil a cow wondering around all over the place so I know that there is going to be some yummy goodness to follow.
I think fast.. what have I had today?? Just 1 slimfast because I have been here all day.I have already turned down the smore and smoothie from the fast food class.
This is possible... food in the middle of the day.... wow!
I go into the gym with much anticipation.... a chicken sandwhich!!! I am so greatful to be in a church right now. I sit down with my WATER, not sweet tea (Oh how I miss sweet tea....), and look at the chicken sandwhich. Suddenly I think I hear the angels singing and trumpets playing. I close my eyes because I know this is going to be sooo good!
Am I salivating????? Oh, this is sooooooo good. How can it not be good. They invented the chicken sandwhich!!!
I eat 1/2 of my sandwhich and L says "MOM!!!! I forgot my supplies in fast food!"
We get up from the table and go retrieve the goods. When I get back I notice that my not so adorable today 5 yr old has finished off my sandwhich. His reply to me "I can't believe you didnt' want the rest. This is THE BEST!!" When I told him I did want the rest he simply said "oops. didn't know that"
I did get to eat 1/2 a bag of lays chips (BAD KIM BAD KIM) but I only ate 1/2 bag.
At the bottom of my chick fil a sack was a brownie.... CHOCOLATE.....
I looked at G and he had a huge smile on his face. I asked him why he was smiling and he said... "This is the best non-homemade brownie I have ever ate!"
I started to say "Thanks asshole for telling me how great it tastes knowing that I am not going to eat it!!!" but I didn't because I was in church.....
(Note to self... I won't be in church when he comes home from work!)
I went home and took the kids swimming with my friend M and her 2. M has lost almost 40 pounds on WW and she is looking good!
I stayed at the pool from 1:30 to 6:30. I went down the red slide 3 times! If you have seen our red slide then you know it takes like 3 or 4 flights of stairs to get to the top of it.
check off exercise for the day
While at the pool I had some blueberries and a mixture of strawberries, peaches, mangos and pineapples. I didn't touch the crackers, chips or hummus!!
Tired from swimming my kids asked for Little Caesars Pizza.
Dinner tonight... 1 slice pepperoni and a small bowl of spaghetti.
I know that I should have had a slimfast but the past few days have been stressful on many levels.. (not going to talk about it now) so my stress relief today was 1 slice of hot fresh pepperoni pizza!!
Ok, 1 pound is not bad when you're dinner was 3 glasses of wine. I would have preferred the entire bottle but I didn't want to be greedy. ;)
Today was busy. I feel like I have worked out. I went to family day at the camp 4/5 kids have been to this week. G and I took turns visiting each child's activity. We didn't go to all and there were some hurt feelings but we did watch each child doing something. I mean we had 4 kids who all did 3 activities... the math is not good when it was just the 2 of us.
After we witnessed all the fun (totally signing them up for this next year!) we went to the gym to have lunch.
Lunch? ut oh. I didn't plan on eating lunch but there is a giant chick fil a cow wondering around all over the place so I know that there is going to be some yummy goodness to follow.
I think fast.. what have I had today?? Just 1 slimfast because I have been here all day.I have already turned down the smore and smoothie from the fast food class.
This is possible... food in the middle of the day.... wow!
I go into the gym with much anticipation.... a chicken sandwhich!!! I am so greatful to be in a church right now. I sit down with my WATER, not sweet tea (Oh how I miss sweet tea....), and look at the chicken sandwhich. Suddenly I think I hear the angels singing and trumpets playing. I close my eyes because I know this is going to be sooo good!
Am I salivating????? Oh, this is sooooooo good. How can it not be good. They invented the chicken sandwhich!!!
I eat 1/2 of my sandwhich and L says "MOM!!!! I forgot my supplies in fast food!"
We get up from the table and go retrieve the goods. When I get back I notice that my not so adorable today 5 yr old has finished off my sandwhich. His reply to me "I can't believe you didnt' want the rest. This is THE BEST!!" When I told him I did want the rest he simply said "oops. didn't know that"
I did get to eat 1/2 a bag of lays chips (BAD KIM BAD KIM) but I only ate 1/2 bag.
At the bottom of my chick fil a sack was a brownie.... CHOCOLATE.....
I looked at G and he had a huge smile on his face. I asked him why he was smiling and he said... "This is the best non-homemade brownie I have ever ate!"
I started to say "Thanks asshole for telling me how great it tastes knowing that I am not going to eat it!!!" but I didn't because I was in church.....
(Note to self... I won't be in church when he comes home from work!)
I went home and took the kids swimming with my friend M and her 2. M has lost almost 40 pounds on WW and she is looking good!
I stayed at the pool from 1:30 to 6:30. I went down the red slide 3 times! If you have seen our red slide then you know it takes like 3 or 4 flights of stairs to get to the top of it.
check off exercise for the day
While at the pool I had some blueberries and a mixture of strawberries, peaches, mangos and pineapples. I didn't touch the crackers, chips or hummus!!
Tired from swimming my kids asked for Little Caesars Pizza.
Dinner tonight... 1 slice pepperoni and a small bowl of spaghetti.
I know that I should have had a slimfast but the past few days have been stressful on many levels.. (not going to talk about it now) so my stress relief today was 1 slice of hot fresh pepperoni pizza!!
June 10 cont.
Ok, so my day did not get any better.
h decided to pour some chocolate milk (gallon size) into a mini water bottle. Not really a good idea. My dog, who got out of our yard and had a gay old time galavanting around our neighborhood has decided that he needed to let some stuffing out of his bed.
Here's a joke for you...
What do you get when you cross kitchen tile, dog bed stuffing with pine chips and chocolate milk? A big FREAKIN' mess that's what!!!! Oh, did I mention all this happened as I was laying on the floor in pain after stepping on a golf ball???
Yeah, you put your foot on one of those suckers and you are pretty much guaranteed a front row seat on the floor.
Well I picked my kids up from their camp and took them to their orientation for college for kids. To say that they were bored... understatement... shit I was bored. I think that lady could have finished her speech in 15 min. Thankfully I had G on his way.... or so I thought. An HOUR later, G showed up and I felt like I was running out the door. (There is my exercise for the day!)
I speed home, change my clothes and wait for L to pick me up. She has been my driver for so many functions lately that she now calls me Mrs Daisy. I just refer to her as my friend with the legs that never freakin' stop! Seriously... she is gorgeous. Tall, blonde and thin yet somehow she is not the enemy.... ;)
Back to my evening. L picked me up so we could go to "one of those parties". You know what I'm talking about and YES I ordered ... a lot! Sorry to all you sensitive people but after 20 years with the same person you need to bring in a little extra "toys". haha
All in all I had 3 slimfast shakes, 4 vitamin water zeros and my dinner......
3 glasses of wine Sorry... sometimes you just gotta say WTF!!
h decided to pour some chocolate milk (gallon size) into a mini water bottle. Not really a good idea. My dog, who got out of our yard and had a gay old time galavanting around our neighborhood has decided that he needed to let some stuffing out of his bed.
Here's a joke for you...
What do you get when you cross kitchen tile, dog bed stuffing with pine chips and chocolate milk? A big FREAKIN' mess that's what!!!! Oh, did I mention all this happened as I was laying on the floor in pain after stepping on a golf ball???
Yeah, you put your foot on one of those suckers and you are pretty much guaranteed a front row seat on the floor.
Well I picked my kids up from their camp and took them to their orientation for college for kids. To say that they were bored... understatement... shit I was bored. I think that lady could have finished her speech in 15 min. Thankfully I had G on his way.... or so I thought. An HOUR later, G showed up and I felt like I was running out the door. (There is my exercise for the day!)
I speed home, change my clothes and wait for L to pick me up. She has been my driver for so many functions lately that she now calls me Mrs Daisy. I just refer to her as my friend with the legs that never freakin' stop! Seriously... she is gorgeous. Tall, blonde and thin yet somehow she is not the enemy.... ;)
Back to my evening. L picked me up so we could go to "one of those parties". You know what I'm talking about and YES I ordered ... a lot! Sorry to all you sensitive people but after 20 years with the same person you need to bring in a little extra "toys". haha
All in all I had 3 slimfast shakes, 4 vitamin water zeros and my dinner......
3 glasses of wine Sorry... sometimes you just gotta say WTF!!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
June 10, 2010
_ _ 0! Only 1 pound… I guess it is better than nothing….
What the hell am I saying, I think this just sucks. I feel like I’m starving all day. I take my kids to dinner. I order off the “Lean and Green” side of the menu and BAM I ordered wrong again.
I think it is time for me to join a gym. I have been putting this off because of my foot. You see I hurt my foot and the doctor thinks it’s my Achilles tendon. I asked him if it was “one of those fat people diseases” and he assured me it wasn’t. I am suppose to wear a boot on my RIGHT foot. Now, if you know me then you know that I practically drive a bus. Would you recommend me driving my bus with a boot on my right foot? Yeah… didn’t think so. I tried it once and nearly peed myself. I want to join a gym. I want someone there to yell at me and make me do it. The problem… my foot really hurts! I am in flip flops because I don’t like anything touching the back of my foot.
My friends ask… “Are you ok?” all the time. I always say yes but inside I want to say… “No!!! My foot is killing me. I don’t want surgery on my foot (recommended) because I want this weight loss surgery FIRST!
I am in total pain and I really just want it to stop.” If I told my friends that then they would start to worry and I don’t want anyone to worry about me. I just want to be able to join a gym and do some exercising like normal people. Will I ever be normal? Maybe I should pull out the Wii Fit Plus today. I can start off slow in the privacy of my own home. That way I won’t totally embarrass myself too bad.
Also, if I start crying from the pain then nobody will see me except the 5 year old that is consistently around me....
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